stumped

2008-02-06T01:30:00.000+08:00

http://wickeddimples.wordpress.com

2007-10-03T14:49:00.000+08:00

Okay,dancingwhores is going private.It's being great blogging and seeing responses,but it's time for me to go all private.

I can write anything without thinking how it may affect anyone,a blog that cant express it's feeling=defeating its purpose.I can post whatsoever obscene stuff Haha and rant on and on.

Before i go off,things arent the same anymore.Many things have happened,i have changed,my environment has 'evolved'.Dont worry for me,just gimme the benefit of doubt.It isnt to please everybody when u cant even please urself,u wonder what exactly is the meaning of all?

Wont be deleting this blog,u can play pokemon battles inside,Johnne =)

Being blogging about 'itinerary' posts,no signifiance to me.There are always issues i wanna voice out.So today being the last entry,i shall be truthful.

Everyone changes,it's only a matter of time and whether the change is big and impactful.I have seen friends turning materialistic,friends completely closing themselves up,me myself becoming no longer the 'no tempered' but im still as soft-hearted LOL.me becoming this bloody spilt personality,and emotional wreck.

I always cling on to the past,good or bad.But i think it's my waay of life,and things have always not being smooth-sailing for me.

Even when we disapprove the changes amongst us,it's a fact that we have to adapt and move on.U wont be reading this but as times goes by,acceptance will take place.There is no need to feel guilt upon what feelings u caused to others because ultimately no one can judged u for who u are.

Even if u screwed up once,twice or so,nothing beats the fact that u navigate ur own way and in everything u do,it bears a consequence.

if i had a choice,i would go totally wild and crazy now.i always wanted a change of lifestyle.There are many things i always wanted to do but i always have restrictions or i could say i procrastinate too much.

Im not happy with my life right now.Im not stable right now actually,i was never the over-achiever but i sometimes wish to make a good impact. undo all my wrongs and words i said.Am i capable of being committed?

All this sounds like bullshit,but life's a bullshit,so no harm adding to the pollution.

Memories it shall store no more.

2007-10-02T14:16:00.000+08:00

He calls these 'cultural' excursions.I'll say i like the unconventional way of dating instead of walking aimlessly in town and watching movies.

yesterday was a fusion.Little India for Thosai,really generous servings and they refilled ur gravy for FREE! and it's bloody cheap too!/Chinatown for Rooftop Bar (i have this craving for Apricot Brandy again!)and Clark Quay to get soaked in the night atmosphere.

The 'cicak' man!

the gmax reverse bungeey was like woah weee~ Nah,i didnt play that,i have a fear of thrill rides.

This guy in the middle who looks like John Locke from Lost(Not because he's botak!),his little daughter was there,and we had this evil impulse to tell her ''Ur father's never gonna come back',or 'Say bye bye to ur daddy.'

Haha,i know so bad right.Anyway i think the people up there were really crazy.They didnt really scream but instead they laughed.Yes,i think their idea of a joke is being suspended mid-air.

this shall be the last entry.Im still deciding which one i like the most and whether to keep it private.shall inform u guys.bye.

2007-10-01T01:23:00.000+08:00

DONT GET MARRIED IF U PLAN TO BE UNFAITHFUL.
IT'S GUYS LIKE YOU WHO PULL DOWN THE REST.

GO AWAY.

2007-10-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

Come and cam-whore with meeeeeeeee~

my beautiful boy!

we have an 'angelic' glow!

the one who keep pushing me today.

i still love u anyhow.

SanaSa day!

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Just when i finally found a really lovely skin for my xanga skin,it prompt it cant be saved and lotsa crap.Aaargh,anyway im still a noob at xanga layouts and stuff.

Kenneth shocked the hell outta me today,and for a wild moment,i actually toyed with the thought of being totally wild like him and go ROAR! I know the kick wont last but heck,life's too short to be a stay-downer.

but have to control myself for now.got the feeling the next one will be wen hui! =x

Went to study at Compass point,well i re-read James Patterson's Suzanne's Diary For Nicholas,it's so bloody touching that i had to touch my thigh and Hq started touching me.LOL.

Holidays means a reading fest for me anyway.

i borrowed a book on manners(i totally need it,),and a light read by Celia Brayfield.

Waited for johnne to join us,saw Mrs iszal and her baby boy at kfc.They look great together,her boy is like really big now.I saw Von,but paiseh,i was too slow to react and only gave a 'AAAAAA' and she sped off in her F1 speed to work. -.-

Din get the airport job,MRS LEE,DOES THIS MEAN I CAN GO CHINA?!CAN U DUN BE SO LAST MINUTE ANYMORE?

2007-09-30T13:36:00.000+08:00

Have been fiddling with xanga & lifejournal.Maybe changing to a more personalised blog or switching to a private blog.The codes and layouts are killing meeeee.

many things im yearning to express out.Everyone deserves a lil bit of privacy every now and then,and the dirrty lil secrets we have.

2007-09-28T11:33:00.000+08:00

scrape by the bike's tyre.

Budget Neo-prints!
Ash say 'Woah,so cool'!

what's with the eyes?!

Mr F isnt very happy with Pocahontas.

new generation of 'pocong'!

near changi airport.

Night cycling started at Pasir Ris then to Loyang,Tampiness and finally Changi.It was pretty fun if all of our buttcheeks didnt hurt much and there was no rain!

Ash & Ashok,Me and Zhiwen(Double bike) while Raymond,Shawal,Mandy,Jay had their own bikes to navigate.

The highlight of the trip was definitely cycling at the expressway,while we were cycling,i was like omg,we all soo going to die or get caught by the TP.We were all like Heng when we finally reached safety of normal roads.

And to Changi Village,we saw a couple of 人妖姐姐.They were really foxy.The funniest thing was suddenly one shouted 'Oooei' or was it boy?and sashayed her way over,the way she walked was like sooo vain,her shoulders and hips were moving as though she was dancing.

And everyone started scurrying away,the boys laaa.We rested near changi airport,and enjoyed the night breeze.The type u lift up ur armpits and go Woohoo~Then it started to rain,spoiler.And it was just one mad dash to the nearest shelter.

The double bikes were separated at shell,and the rest at block 233.and we cycled to blk 244 or something,we were shivering cos the rain and wind just keep gushing into us.And something so disgusting happen that i would be traumatised for life.

Ash and i were inside the lift as it was warmer,and we started laughing at some random thing and he suddenly said'Im going to fart' and i thought he was kidding.But he did,the 'poof' sound!what the heck?!the agony of me alone to smell his omg.
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There was some miscommunication along the way,hope everyone is okay.Some of us went home,while the remainder stayed at Downtown east macs.I stepped out of macs after a nice hot tea,eager for home.And it rained.So we ate laksa and slowly walked to the carpark area,it BLOODY RAINED AGAIN.

We had to return the bikes and so bo pian,we cycled and walked in the rain.Im sorry for scaring the others with my cheery wannabe sing-along routine of 'I hate todayy,it sucks big time'.No one joined in my singing,cept for super reluctant Zhiwen.He only wanna fu yan me=(ello?it was supposed to keep u warm leh!

And then it was home,and i slept like a log.

2007-09-26T06:44:00.000+08:00

It's like a crazy morning for me right now. Im not sleep-deprived now,i have like a major overdose of Zzzz.

im getting seriously freaked out by the changes,the symptons seems to tally,bloody hell this is like one irreversible act and im like getting clammy hands right noww.Aaargh.

These few days,i realised im capable of so much damage,it does not mean breaking the ice cream store's handle and my room's doorknob ah.Any further destruction,and i swear man,i wont be able to forgive myself.sorry love.

i wanna be able to continue to love u and that's what matters most.

*Starts playing Truely Madly Deeply and ur new lamp could come in handy right now.

im like such a suggestive arse lately,hehe.

we wear our vices on our sleeves now.
The lil defects doesnt mean we are all going down.

or again,maybe not.

2007-09-26T06:15:00.000+08:00

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U know it when a stream of blankness devours u.

when everyone has the same dreamy smile.

it doesnt matter the exchange of body heat is from someone u know.

U are not just soaking in the atmosphere,u're part of it.

creating it.

2007-09-22T15:13:00.000+08:00

im not angry,just disappointed.
im not breaking down just easing in.
words can be manipulating creatures.
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im sorry.

2007-09-21T19:25:00.000+08:00

Today,allow me to be a emo bitch.
im not sucidical lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

U know what i wanna say to u.i love u for who u are,u are worth it,go and pamper urself.But still u know the one im most worried is u.maybe tml i can understand more but still remain sober and look out for urself.
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Though u always dilly dally in watsons and push me to strangers,i love u still.Maybe u wont be reading this cos u will be busily dl-ing songs instead,but still can u go tanning?i think u look better dark,being korean doesnt mean u have to be fair what.

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If i say something truely erxin,i will be mocked by u guys.But before i have any regrets,i really love u two.Even when u guys teased me and tskked me constantly,u guys are undeniably part of my life. I LOVE TAN HUI KHOON AND LIM YUWEN!

Hui khoon,i always say u think u very chio ah.but u are really pretty and charming in ur own way.Dont be so shuang,and go hehe in ur smug smile.Stay focused now.

Yuwen,i actually wanna cry when u ask me to understand becos i was very emo just now.I watch the tyra banks show abt dwarfs and u make me wanna cry more.Dont so pekche liao,LAO DAO.u will always be someone i love n can ka jiao.

U have no idea how much i wanna kiss u but slap u at the same time.honestly.

they are wanting to be mailed.where are u,WONG LIAN YA?!

Are u sleeping now?Are u busily packing ur bag of pink stuff?Are u stuck in the lecture hall?Are u kissing a ah moh cutie? Are u missing me?I MISS YA REAL BAD NOW.

2007-09-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

Kenneth went to book a court at the stadium for the badminton.Which is laughable for me as i totally suck at badminton,just wanna play for fun.but real thanks ah.

Got really sweaty and all hyped-up,we should do this often!

Went eat with him and meet the rest for the marathon forms.Tml still need to go back school to hand in the forms.Seems like even in holidays,i have to go back frequently.Results out on 3rd oct?Hell,im like still in slumberland when i was told to check online.

Being closing one eye lately,it amuses me because in the past,i would just ROAR out all my displeasures and demand a change.well well well,we'll see how things goes.It never occured to me that this would affect me and another thing came up today,courtesy.

It really means alot to me.haha sounds like wannabe goodie,but i think it's the basic manners u can offer.

Last point to make,if i say NO,it means a firm confirmed No.Stop bugging me already,seriously,u disgust me,ur motives.dun ask me anymore before i scream the fuck outta u.im like so irritated now.

2007-09-19T14:06:00.000+08:00

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Okay,before i go suffer and die in the midst of running,i have to blog about my 'achievements'.i cleaned up my room and finally unwrapped my corkboard,but found out i have no thumbtacks or pins or whatever u call those needles.

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so i used double-sided tape,cos i was just too anxious mann. It's not complete yet,n i realise i dun have Khalijah's pic,dammm it lah,hope she can autograph for me. And why on earth should i put HIS photo,cos it's a lovely yet painful reminder on why should we practise self-control.

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Yuwen,if u think ur desk is messy.Mine can rival urs.Lim BUUUUU.

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I vaccummed the fake roses cos they were dusty.I think im a lil haywired from all the cleaning and NO WAY AM I GOING TO BE A HOUSEWIFE in the future,i really cant find contentment in cleaning up the house,cooking meals and waiting for my hubby to come back ALMOST DAILY.

Sooo aargh,ADULT and sad case.Okaay,gotta run... LITERALLY.

2007-09-17T23:16:00.000+08:00

Well,it seems that consistentancy doesnt exist in my world.Freedom is sought both ways.i know what am I capable of this time, stepping out my comfort zone and having a breakthrough.

Leave it all behind and dont turn back,u stupid bitch.

It scares me and probably you when i have millions of thoughts running through my mind at night. Night seems to be replenishin' stupid thoughts at times.

Im sorry if i neglect anyone at this phrase,be it be my friends,my bf or even my mother.i want everything.This time,im the over-achiever and i just need to sort it out,really drained out lately.

I think i really should follow that silly book of meditation and start OM-ing my way through life.

Breathe in~ I want to seek peace with life
Breathe out~I AM in peace with myself.

OM OM OM~

Breathing problems and nausea took over today.i seriously dun have time management and sense.

2007-09-16T11:04:00.000+08:00

i have no idea why everything is underlined. AAARGH!

Anyhow,Botak Jones was like orgasm.Really worth the wait of abt 40 mins,they had really generous servings! About 12 ppl were wrking there,but they were really nice and friendly despite the busy hour. But it was pretty commercialised,,they even sold BJ merchadises like caps and tees -.-

I FINALLY HAVE 12 HRS OF SLP NOW.IM LIKE ONE HAPPY BITCH WEE!

fish and chips!

The gorilla or grizzy bear?

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no lah,it's Lele Almightly.
Giving enlightenment to Zw.

He's singin' while im erm trying to shut him up.

STILL WANNA SING?!

I ALSO CAN DO WANNABE EMO ARTSY FARTSY SHOTS!

i love my wallpaper~

2007-09-15T12:14:00.000+08:00

Bloody disconnection.Type quite a no.of paragraphs and info and nothing is saved.Bloody everything now.

Then somehow i feel misunderstood,i assumed and go 'oh okay'and when things dun turn out my way,i get really dissed off.i dunno what the hell i talking lah.

really hate being deprived of sleep,even when i switched off the bloody phone,there willl always be someone to wake me up.really feel like killing everyone in sight.

OKAY.END OF RANTS!

Was at Mosi cafe in Haji lane ytd.Homely ambience and their morrocan chilli was like havoc to the tongue.Just one dip was enough to ''omg,really so hot ah!?'. Pluck was opposite the cafe, i wanna go there next time.Ice-cream parlour and fashion store merged,lovee the concept.

Was surfing the net and had this great find.This place call Pitch Black whereby it's a mini movie theater,cafe and art shop. Like so ULTRA COOL, im sure it would be a great place to chill out.

REVIEW: http://www.theurbanwire.com/stories/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=1018&Itemid=64

Lovely?

2007-09-14T12:28:00.000+08:00

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Soaked in the ambience,ur lemon-stained fingers..

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High up,beneath the bustling noises
chilled-out rock music play.
serenade us under that sky of stars.

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Breathe in and
we realised we have entwined as one,
u are here,and nothing really matters anymore.

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2007-09-12T18:06:00.000+08:00

ahhh, to think i naively assumed that the soccer match would bring isf & ish together.
Wasnt it supposed to be a friendly match?

Dont get into fights merely because of this, anger management people.

Anyhow,alot of us are not happy with that Adrian guy.the firestarter. Like hello? first u made some fucked-up comment about ite girls being sluts.Please watch your words,do u think u are the elite,if u are one,why are u here?

then abt the racist comment abt our boys really worsen it all lah. U never even participated in the match so like shut up already.

Forget it *make peace not war.
There are better things to blog about.

LIKE the HOLIDAYS!

-Catch up on sleep,u have no idea how deprived i am of that.

-Work,if the airport thing has gd pay and i go through tt interview. last min.

-More time with friends and loverboy!

-i wanna go SUN- TANNING/ MOVIE WATCHING / BAKE CAKE WITH ZHIWEN / PUBBING / SLEEP UNTIL I NO BUTT CRACK.

WEEEEEEEEEEEE!

random: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBVmfIUR1DA johnne gave me this link,go watch how disturbed that kid is.

2007-09-11T21:22:00.000+08:00

i ate 6 donuts,yes 6 at one go.Dont try Muchy's,it's a tad too sweet.

I just woke up from a night nap.
Goddd,cant imagine when im pregnant,how horrible i would be.

now i got an insane craving for soup and curry chicken.

After tml,I AM A FREE WOMAN. Just need to attend marathon trainings.I need a job,i need money, i need to spend my time wisely.

my yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away~
i hope we have more days like 505,and we can go crazy & swt and in that lil world holding only us.

2007-09-09T23:07:00.000+08:00

SEPTEMBER 10th, Monday

Bzf was a BiLi PaLa mess today. I did study but not hard enough.I even invented a few stuff in the paper to make up for the blank space =(

Today wasnt a good day,the red tsunami created havoc, i panicked.It came twice within a month,feelin' pretty fragile at the moment.

Today also marks the end of the HUNGRY GHOST FESTIVAL.

Which means more incense paper to be burnt,the smell is overwhelming.Grand Finale what.Studying tml with the others,Gelare is sinful pleasure.

Final pics...

they are really a bunch of dirrty boys.

That shawl was the prop of the day.

Steven the Godfather.(success!)
Aizhen is so lucky.

Jaycares for everyone's welfare.

Pls support http://www.LaoLiuInc.com

Cleopatra? Dominant bitch lah.

pls do not massage my non-existent arse,honey.

Haha.

Ahmohs: the essence and class.

Asians: Let's sell Gui Chup.

(how do u spell that!)

2007-09-09T11:25:00.000+08:00

Initially,Liquid Kitchen was the plan. But we were 'budget' plus i had spend 10 dollars on fortune-telling -.- so we went to Chomp Chomp!

Yuwen,Johnne,Hq,Kenneth!

Kang Kong,Stingray,Lala,Carrot Cake!

this is pure orgasm.

In the beauty shop where kenneth did his eyebrows.

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back tracking to the fortune-telling, it was good.I shuffled cards and got 3 'K's. Which,according to him was the best?He spoke of 'gui ren' helping me through my life,but also spoke of people getting envy of my success and said i was choosy. LOL.

The fortune-teller was a tad too out there,he even talk about newater and we all got kinda okkkaaay. And we started asking really dumb qns towards the end because we were really curious and being our usual idiotic selves.

Hq: Can she go to heaven? (beckons to me.)

Me:then can i 'chen xian'? meaning:becoming a deity

( starts laughing hystercially)

but the fortune teller laughed in response. And afterwhich,i dunno why we became so holy,went to the tua pek gong temple and they went to offer joss sticks.This random uncle came to chat with us about gods.

After eating at Chomp2,we went to to the playground.Johnne is so horny,tell me why are u so sexed-up lately! Haha. I fell off the swing,but luckily only yuwen and hq saw.so paiseh.

BZF AND TPS CA. everyone is aiming for As,this is no longer being contented with being medicore anymore.

2007-09-08T15:05:00.000+08:00

Top Models Inc.

Gotta Be On Top.

Mango ambassedors?

we want FAME!

2007-09-08T13:48:00.000+08:00

First Movements Concert@ Esplanade

Prague Sinfonia Orchestra with Min Lee

We were seated at Circle 3, where we fidgeted for 90 minutes. Really,Classicial music is not our thang. It got really bland to the extent after 15 minutes that we started looking around to see who was sleeping,how that Trumpet player turned an insane shade of red(probably hyperventilating), and i even started playing with my lovely boy's fingers.

Yes,it was that bad,short attention spans.

The dramatic conductor did 2 bloody encores (NO ONE ASKED HIM TO LOH!)and one song is about 15 minutes so we had to sat through another 30 mins of silent agony.

But anyhow it was an eye-opener to all of us, so hey thanks ahh, Bishan Ite for subsiding 15 bucks.

Ate at Macs, and we all had the insane mood to cam-whore at Marina Square. And we starting exhanging shoes,Zhiwen wore Von's high heels,LOL. now he knows the feeling of pain for beauty! Ash wore mine,and it become big loh~

and really ps to Mandy for the cam thing. Actually i was expecting u to shoot me with ur pisai pearls but luckily i was spared. sorry babe.

anyhow,some pictures below. still got more,waiting for ai to send. I want group pics and my Cleopatra and her slave ones especially.

all the men in ISF.

ROAR!

i like this pic cos they block ah mohs behind.

LUV ASIAN CHICKS.

Gis,the walking mannequin.

HAA.

i know u are hungry for me.

Bob Bam Ash Jay

okay,going to the liquid kitchen later. Really miss u guys. We've always had those 'departing' hugs which make me feel both sad and loved. Love u all. muack muack!

2007-09-05T22:09:00.000+08:00

Upcoming storms sighted and ready to flare again.
School seems like some cheapo wisteria lane with cannons hidden amongst the manicured gardens.

And looks are so decieving, u never know who is behind ur back, killing u softly?
U SINISTER THING OF THE YEAR~

Talking in morse code sure is frustrating~

back to updates.

- i have an ulcer =( Jay & Gis, which one of u?
-another week to go and i need not take that stupid 'drug' that make me totally off the line.

-i love u guys.I cannot balance everything, im sorry,i'll take back my words.can i try juggling?
-I miss u, we shall send letters, i miss the days we messed up each others' hair and laugh like cheena pontianaks.

-Help me tell that cute bitch that i forgive her for spilling the mess, and i will bestow her with bacon strips soon.And help me tell that cute bitch's owner's brother that im listening to him intently and i love him very much. hehe.

2007-09-04T20:49:00.000+08:00

NO NEWS IS GOOD NEWS?

NAH!

I NEED A BREATHER.

CANT TAHAN ANYMORE.

ANYONE WHO CAN GIMME A BIG HUG AND A FRUIT TART WILL GO FAR IN LIFE.

DEPRIVED.

2007-09-02T19:24:00.000+08:00

Yellow ribbon Walkathon at pasir ris park !

I was sincerely disgusted yet sad when i heard what happened. Dont u urself feel how ridiculous u are when u sent that msg? so what exactly do u want? Do u feel discriminated just because no one wishes u? the msg seems to imply u want someone to just 'fu yan' you, im just so *%$#@ now.

Anyhow. the walk was too congested,and the traffic was chaotic when people jaywalked and caused a jam. I would like to salute the handicapped,the young and the poor mascot for participating, they are the real heros okayyy.

The walk wasnt tedious but was further that what we expected, the goodie bag was a misery.And the weather was making a mockery of us,by frying us initially den soaking us.

We headed to bedok,beach road and novena. OMG,din realised how many places we ran today!

Under the scorching sun~

No, this aint raw meat!

It's called' Tulang'.

some malay dish,what bone marrow.

And boy did they have a sumptous feast,u can see the gravy splattered everywhere and even onto my sleeve,(WHICH CB kia!). They were busily sucking the juicy thing,but the colour to me is really ughh,i am officially traumatised now.

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At velocity whereby the 'boys will be boys' oogled at the vivacious HOT ah-moh cheerleaders. Me and Mandy like the brunette,really pretty. And one had lovely mermaid-ish hair of blonde. And of course,really hot figures~ (esp their arses and legs!) essence of caucasians!
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My dearest Bam,Ashok,Ash, Indra and MR WONG ZHIWEN! They(the boys) were really very enthusastic,and starting shouting !-.- and waving !-.-'' and took pics with the hotties.
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The media is so unfair, please let men be exploited by being topless and wearing briefs only!LOL.

Went home after the guys were satisfield with their picture taking session with the cheerleaders.* shows pek che face. u shall sleep in the living room tonight,u techo ti ko! ABISH*
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CHANGE OF PLANS . . =(

2007-09-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

Tonight will be an entry filled with vices.

Honestly,im worried after today. i love u, i want u to be ur sane and insane self. I dun wanna see u heartbroken. maybe u think it sounds silly and this is nv gonna happen to u yet,but still.

just be careful ah.

the sexy feline.

a bet.

LOL.

2007-09-01T11:23:00.000+08:00

For 20 minutes, Felix was transformed into a MJ/Religionist/Nigga/Dancer/Xu Chu Mei/Gymnastic and moreee.u would make a great 'ventriloquist' or impressionist,my dear boy.

we went inside LASELLE,it was so WOW!~

Very futuristic design within.

The hungry prowls.

u are the reason for that joyful leap in my walk now.

2007-09-01T10:45:00.000+08:00

Went back to Bowen. 5 years in that particular building certainly gives a nostalgia for those carefree days. The paths whereby we created havoc in many lil ways and creating to the endless stream of noise pollution.

Mrs Iszal seems immune to age hey? The recollections of the times we seen each other 'grow' up. From pubescent students to ahem 3/4 of a adult? And from seeing her getting married and embrace motherhood?

Seeing all the teachers and ex-bowenians gather tgt suddenly overwhelmed me that how strikingly fierce the pace of time is.

Remember sec 1f, the very beginning?

2007-08-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

The blessed.

The nonchalent.

The ignorant.

The regretful.

The overachiever.

The peacemaker.

The hopeful.

and last but not least.
The underrated.

Standing by the sidelines and observing the paces of u all, aint as easy as it seemed.

2007-08-29T16:21:00.000+08:00

Okay,i have to admit im the freaky lil lady who is emo during the nights.

may those minute disputes go away~
may August fade away~

just saw the bday video.Just felt it was sweet in a morbid kinda way.Omg lah,i sound like some 人妖! and i was wondering who was the fierce one that shouted ''fuck la' and after replaying it several times,it was zhiwen!He really scares me sometimes.ha ha.

Exams are in the next following week and we are still in the 'fun' mode of playing card games and being out after school.Time for some group studies and personal revision. Especially for BZF,den after which HOLIDAYS and a change of modules.weeeeee~

Love is trembling happiness.
You never lose by loving, you always lose by holding back.
how true.

2007-08-28T21:00:00.000+08:00

I dont see what's the pt of having a fuckin' cheebye blog,whereby i have to worry what i write would affect people's thinkings of me,ppl finding fault with me and blah blah blah.

im really sorry. In one way or another. There are many things to be left unsaid. Especially under these ugly circumstances,it would seemed highly hypocritical to offer any nice consoling words.

Really. Im so overtaken by a series of emotions.EMO! Why do i feel so affected by just merely this? Ever since the last,i have worst-case scenarios jabbing into my mind constantly.This may sound perverse,but maybe right from the start and till now,i wasnt secure.

Sometimes,i really hate my frigging ''kindred spirit'' for this kind of situation.I know if i continue being such a 'weighting down my conscience' girl, it would spell the end of it.

Stop all ur pretenious acts and start being a real person.

2007-08-26T23:56:00.000+08:00

ur scent; ur sandpaper face against mine

and the whirlpool of emotions.

move on and not hold on to sinful flashbacks.

2007-08-26T21:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's NDP dinner was a total SCAM! Really laughable in a sadist way.

It was some getai heartlander thing,we were seated furthest from the stage.In fact,we were the very last table.I think the whole thing was called 'Bukit Gombak National Day Celebrations and Variety Show'',the entertainment was honestly scary,this old man belted hokkien songs shrilly and literally blasted our ears.

it was boringgggg, and everyone just wanna eat and leave.

Mrs Lee 'conveniently' forgot to tell us that we had to do some proposal/report and plan something for this next year. zhen de hen thanks ah!!!!!!!!!! *beckons middle finger.

2007-08-25T16:03:00.000+08:00

will i wake up to a beautiful morning with u by my side again?

2007-08-25T14:40:00.000+08:00

Went to the Balcony @ Heeren. Too bad we went there in the late afternoon so the ambience wasnt unleashed to its fullest.But still,it's a really cool place to chill, would like to try the 'sun beds' next.

Let's go there, ah tan and ah lim! i misss u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Spend some real quality time, the last couple of weeks were really hectic with events after school. It's been a while since i last savoured pure swt blissness. Acting 'adorable' and the endless stream of random silliness in our conversations.i love u baby!

My definition of my soulmate is my best friend, my companion and my lover all rolled into one.

=) =) =)

my grilled creamed chicken.(TOO generous portion of vegs though)

His red snapper( with the self-proclaimed kacang puteh peas?)

i seemed to be squeezing his testicles or something.

after much chastising to look normal -.-
(hate haywired hair!)

Dinner later at the Bukit Gombak CC. Aaaargh, it ends at 11.

God,pls dun ask us to go up the stage and do funny stuff, i would rather watch some spastic kids attempt folkdance or even try to listen some lao kok kok delivering his speech hehe.

2007-08-23T19:34:00.000+08:00

I just need a escape right now.Everything seems so arrrrghhh,,congested?
It's so hard to balance everything,im tired physically and mentally.

here is a very meaningful quote from the book

''Suzanne's Diary For Nicolas.''

Imagine life is a game in which you are juggling five balls. The balls are called work, family, health, friends, and integrity.And you're keeping all of them in the air.

But one day you finally come to understand that work is a rubber ball.If you drop it, it will bounce back.The other four balls -- family, health, friends, integrity -- are made of glass. If you drop one of these, it will be irrevocably scuffed, nicked, perhaps even shattered.

And once you truly understand the lesson of the five balls,you will have the beginnings of balance in your life.

On a random note: I actually overdosed on my medicene for my infection. Hell,it gave me spells of drowsiness,i actually dozed off while talking and periods of hyperness.

This goes to show that dun be an ass like me and READ THE INSTRUCTIONS CAREFULLY!

2007-08-21T20:43:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY!

Seems to becoming a picture blog hey.
Went to Ikea or how the IJ gals say it (ee ki ya).

Got a nice sized corkboard,his name is Chris as said on the label. I still havent unwrap it,gonna put lotsa photos, swt messages and reminders.

Pictures of the camwhores below~

Reached home,totally shagged. And hell broke loose silently. When i got so involved in my own affairs and assume everything is peachy fine? im glad for the honesty though.

Today

Lessons are bland. I think Mrs Lee would make the whole class stay back and do the survey thing. Seriously, do u think u are excellent? im not trying to put u down, but u shld accept whatsoever comments and not try to threaten i mean talk us into being untruthful.

Dinner with Zhiwen at pastamania. Ahhhh, ''paparazi''? It's really like what u predicted man!!!!

we went to the phramacy as i was searching for some bandage or cream for my right elbow. The bloody patch had been there since i went to bukit or sugei nature reserve and the lady told me it was an infection!!!!!!!!

Went home early cos he was burning hot. i think i just passed the flu bug to him =x

Steven/ Eric's

too bad its dark,but u really look cute!

Need i say more?

Love the fusion of colors.

HOHO!

Looks like a cross bwt a showroom or tv scene.

the 3 modern concubines.

ur new spokesperson!

some band.

2007-08-21T08:27:00.000+08:00

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:

-Its over!

Answer the following questions :1. The person who tag you is?
-Shirley

Your relationship with him/her is?
-bowen schoolmate

Your 5 impressions of him/her?
-petite
-smart
-cheerful
-hyper
-just adorable!

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
-GIVING ME THIS QUIZ!!! HAHA.

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
-EXCUSE ME,U GOT TISSUE? (i have no idea ,really!)

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
-be a lesbian lala.

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
- nothing.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
- gives EVIL grin!

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
-cos she is really nice?

10.The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
-toss her up in the air

11.Your overall impression of him/her is?
-Good things come in small packages.

12.How you think people around you will feel about you?
-random,no link weirdo.

13.The character you love of yourself are?
-my bad mood wont be infectious.

14.On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
-worry wart.

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
-Guan Yin Ma.

16.Pass this quiz to 10 persons.
1.Lianya
2.Yuwen
3.Huiqun
4.Najib
5.Hanafi
6.Johnne
7.Mandy
8.Jay
9.Jeammie
10.Cheefong

11. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
- some ah moh gal.

12.Is no.9 a male or female?
-female.

13.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
-affair!

14.How about no.8 and 5?
-i dun mind gayness.

15.What is no.2 studying about?
-computers?

16.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
-when she told me she wanna jump down the mrt track.

17.What kind of music band does no.8 like?
-he said he like BEE GEES. and mainstream chinese pop i think.

18.Does no.1 has any siblings?
-a older sis

19.Will you woo no.3?
-no, she's a scary but sweet bitch.

20.How about no.7?
-i cant stand gfs who can only drink 5 kinds of water.

21.Is no.4 single?
-yes.

22.What’s the surname of no.5?
-Mohammad?

23.What’s the hobby of no.4?
-he likes bands and checking out girls. haha.

24.Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
-no link.

25.Where is no.2 studying at?
-Rpppppppppp/

26.Talk something casually about no.1?
-a pink lover and my siaocharbo=)

27.Have you try developing feelings for no.8?
-and get beaten up by my bf no way!

28.Where does no.9 live at?
-East coast!

29.What color does no.4 like?
-black,red and blue.

30.Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
-nah.

31.Does no.7 likes no.2?
-no link.

32.How do you get to know no.2?
-our virgin year in bowen.

33.Does no.1 have any pets?
-nopeeee.

34.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
-YES YES YES!!!!!!

2007-08-19T08:53:00.000+08:00

SUPER MASSIVE UPDATES~!

I miss u, it's hard to convey the message. what would he feel? regret? aargh.

Friendly match with ISH and Admin. Mostly of our classboys played, we were cheering and jeering in the stands that i have to admit. And ahem.. we girls saw something 'lovely' we shouldnt see,all thanks to Ash's mischief.
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But it was great to see those guys bond with ISH in the field,although one idiot screwed up.we lost 3-0. aww,but there would be a match against Retail on Tues. JIAYOU JINSHU!

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Really bad aiming.

watching the scurrying ants move food -.-

(i look so boy boy)

Was at Vivo to catch 881 with Ashok,Mandy and Zhiwen.It's really an unconventional show about getais, kinda like a hokkien musicial with subtitles.

And i know some may cringe upon hearing its a local show, but the only part i cringe was when weilian made a appearance.He is so overrated~

Other than that,i was laughing consistently. We saw jay busy in action at Sushi Tei, din see us though i was glueing myself to the glass pane and gesturing wildly.

Mandy and i checked out dresses, she bought a white one. I really like the yellow dress in Qoosh but he said it was too transparent so blahhhhhhhhhhh.

18 Aug Saturday

Rock climbing at Macpherson ite. GODDDDD, it was tedious.My arms are yelling in agony now!I naively though they would just attached us to a rope and we would just steadily climb up.But no,we had to learn about belaying and do all the safety precautions ourselves, overall it was pretty cool lah.

Except that it was pretty demoralising when the other experienced rock climbers climbed waay up to like 5 storeys while the rest of us noobs struggled at the very bottom. And one instructor slammed me to the rock wall while i was suspended mid-air,luckily i didnt knock face first.

Not recommended for people who have fear of heights though.

Afterwhich i went down to join Ashok,Aizhen,Mandy,Mas,Razila and her bro,Bob,Jay and Zhiwen for the fireworks. We managed to 'chope' seats but it was sooo congested with people.

When we tried buying food,everywhere was packed to the max, practically all the food outlets had looong queues. So exasperated that we had to walk all the way to Suntec,same situation.we end up eating pastamania on the stairs,pathetic.

The display of fireworks gathered oohs and ahhs amongst the crowds,but i think only some were worth going gaga over.Razila's brother was really adorable and quirky,i think he's called fiqri?(reminded of fikri haa).But i think the sweetest is having ur lovely beside u.*blush.

Anyhow,the upcoming 'events' would be overwhelmed with tps CA, walkaton at pasir ris,marathon trainings and the dreaded Napfa, oh and the concert at esplanade. I need a breather man.

2007-08-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

I dont usually post lyrics but this is one song i feel the most.Chinese lyrics imposes alot of meaning that one can never convey through other languages.

假想敌蔡健雅

分开感觉原本没那么疼
相爱过程两人都诚恳
平心静气调整或许还能
把他看成老朋友般的同等身份

可惜人都抵不过自尊
不恨听起来太愚蠹

不闻不问怕自已平静的心再沸腾
爱过的人都非得当成假想的敌人

不闻不问却反复提醒自己有伤痕
冷漠的人得在狠下心前先对自己残忍

回忆亲昵口吻亲密眼神
难以平衡暧昧感觉如何能调整

总之界限要清楚划分以防自己还想要等

2007-08-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

I knew this day was coming, my first thought incurred in Sec3. that was 3 yrs ago,but of course i didnt harp on this. Escapism seems to be the ideal way out for me.

Sending Lianya off was really overwhelming. It's as though u cant bear to do so but u know u have to for the sake of better prospects and the tonnes of opportunities in uk. I cried after she went to the departure hall, felt really shitty and sad, it seems like there was so much left unsaid.

If i could summarise everything within a blog entry,it would be impossible. She was my prime in Bowen, the bestie/crazy/ mother/ sister all in one.

The one who went through puberty with me

the one whom helped me steal my crush photos in the staffroom.

the one whom could be so crazy yet sensible at the same time.

the one whom could crack me up and break me down.

the one who stood by me during my crucial times.

Funny thing, its always when one is gone and u start to appreciate that particular person.

JIAYOU JINSHU!

hpy hjr, no matter where or when. help is always near.

2007-08-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

Ghost child

not incestous,just cheeky.

LOL.

U know when u look through those really old photos of ur childhood. Some images may appear vaguely whereas others are strikingly clear?

I just remember i was a supreme siao lil charbo with tonnes of energy. Those hyperactive and 'fidget is a must' kind. And i once stuffed a tit tat into my nose. -.-
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And Matthew looked so cute last time but now leh?!

This month has being particularly biased towards Geminis, as in a bad way. A streak of bad incidents. Im like on-off sick and i wish to get through all this nonsense.

School has been a total blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah~ Voldey Morty is starting to scare me, the lil threatening , no loud bursts of laughter coming from me during that lesson anymore. wah pianggg.

It's really hard to juggle everything. I assumed i could, but i think im just too over confident this time. Priortise? or just mere excuses.

Anyhow,next few days will be sports sports sports.

Thu- support soccer friendly match evm VS admin or accounting.

Fri-Maybe training for run or stupid Nafa

Sat- Rock climbing, e last time was cancelled.

2007-08-12T11:40:00.000+08:00

paparazzi =.=

Anita & Giselle 's 'frame'
and the nonchalent.

Mr Skinnypants Mat! HA!

my new extended family LOL.

KING & I (yumiko's chalet)

Having the annual 'flu package'. Tonnes of mucus to be unleasheddddd.

Arrggggggghhh.!

2007-08-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

hpy hjrs.

Johnne's ahem passionate burst?

Pattern maaaah!

spastic but cute!

dont kill me, this is the ULTIMATE relaxation.

peiying huizhi kenneth

hugss!

Tomatoes!

crazy women.

Ate at Vila'ge, Teriyaki chicken skrewed cream pasta and choco-mint ice cream. Bad lighting but nice spacious bathrooms. It was also my consecutive 3rd day at the Heeren. zzz.

Went to starbucks afterwhich, before some went for clubbing and others head home.

Crazy love, hope u like my stuff and no u are not FAT, U ARE GORGEOUS AND U WILL KNOCK THOSE AH MOHS DOWN. U WILL TURN THEM ON!

Thanks for the lovely letter, and ur typical 'girlish pink' decor of it. Remember to read the album book when u get on to your flight, if u read it now, i will kill u. But there would be a diff.kind of impacts.Absoutely no sneak previews ah.

See ya on sat. i love u,u disturbing girl. although u squirt lime all over my legs and attempt to sabo me.

ANYTHING RING ME UPPP. and i will convey ur msg to him.

hpy hjr!

2007-08-08T19:46:00.000+08:00

Okay, let me make a clear stand.

First of all, the stupid tagging thing, thanks for the overwhelming responses. Up to 300 tags! Weeeeeeeeeee. But anyhow the childish war pls stop it.

Im sure u guys are very 'into' insulting me, be it be im a whore or some monkey. But pls do not insult my friends. Pls bear it in mind that u foolish ppl started all this nonsense, they cant take these down.

Similar to ur plights, when my friend insult debbie, u guys cant take it. So yaaaaaa.

Please people, get a life, there are so many ways to help her, and this is not one of them.Instead u are making things harder.But what the heck, im repeating my words yet again.

anyhow, i really appreciate that my friends has spoken up for me. but i dont wan to pull anyone down, it's a simple 3 person matter.

And on a final note, i do not snatch people bf, it's laughable to think of me doing all this. Plus, i'll probably die laughing at this entry few months from now, i sounds incredibly childish n disbelieving lah.

ps: On a random note: I cut my hair today, they claimed it's short but u know my love for short hair, i feel it's not short enough! LOL. i think i wont be keeping long hair for a long time, the tempatation to cut is too big for me to resist.

2007-08-06T17:31:00.000+08:00

Lianya:

Time really flies, that dreaded day is coming. I really hope after u settle down there, we would still be in contact. hope it wont come as a culture shock for u, and just ease in.

Luckily,u are pretty sociable and easy-going so u can fit in. Dont get too homesick,and learn to grow up even if it's a different environment. i love u my forever hpy hjr, by ur side always even though we are miles away.

When u come back,i will try not to go gaga over ur Ah moh bf,LOL!

2007-08-05T13:52:00.000+08:00

Everything seems to be going well now, at least this relationship is not revolved around sugar-coated words and empty promises. Our honesty and reassurances towards each other has been of utmost, respect comes in two ways.

People may speak of love as something that is purely based on the element of romance. But what makes it attainable and to keep it going is not merely the sparks (God knows how long sparks can long?) but the ability to keep us all going on.

Which in my opinion,means compromising and having a certain level of intimacy. In the long run,maybe a certain passion for ur other half may have fizzle a notch, or u find urself into more sticky situations whereby arguements seems to be the only communciation lately.

And in haste,u try to hush the whole problem out, thinking the best way to tackle the problem is not to mention the problem again.

But ultimately problems seek to be resolved and unwanted conflicts occur. So the best solution is not to leave things hanging mid-air but to solve it and get it done and over with.

Gotta catch some beauty zzz....................

momentarily,time stops.

for just u and me.

entwined with a layer of sweetness.

2007-08-04T12:15:00.000+08:00

Ecstatic mugger.

tilt ur head.

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i doodled a bird/dragon/monster?

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The Tps project and MANDY'S FEMININE WHITE HAND!

Went to study with Hq ard amk area. I was busily doodling and laughing at our stupidity lah.

There was this really gorgeous piece of 'art' in front of us at Mos burger, and she deliberately swop to the left so the guy could see i was obviously gawking at him! Saboteur!!!!!!!!!!

so paiseh lah, and we drew a portrait of each other. She looked like some red-indian auntie due to her laugh lines and i feel i look like Mr Potatoe or some weird cartoon freak.

zzzzzzzzzzzzz. okay update later, will be meeting my boy & other warriors to catch baybeats. Hope to get 'high' and see someone do some serious headbanging or crowd-diving hehe.

okays,off to a nap or else my eye bags will worsen.ugh.

BYE LOVES!

2007-08-03T16:31:00.000+08:00

PAYM LEADERSHIP

The next coolest thing we are going through is the Standard Chartered Marathon.

It would be so great lah, besides getting the number tag and shirt, it would be just a WEEEEEEEEEE~ experience for us all.

Although i foreseen aches here and there for future training, i bet everyone is geared up.

The actual day is on December!

random note: it seems to be a peverse trend to beat up bus drivers lately.

2007-08-02T18:46:00.000+08:00

ZHIWEN!

.
.

Bert!

Spot the uncanny resemblance!

WAHAHA!

2007-08-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

deleted a chunk of something i really wanted to convey through. but still i deleted it anyhow lah.

Sometimes having a blog ,but having to bear the consequences and to consider some ppl's feelings even if it is someone i barely know ,is really exasperating.

i dun flame people; im not amused by the childish antics but still i still fell misjudged. It's high time i shld get my words conveyed through another way.

2007-07-30T23:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY SEXY!

Gorgeous, May the bulge in ur trousers be MORE generous as EVER!

Intimidating?

he was checking on toto bets!

at Starbucks

i miss Ah juan & An An.

Yuwen & Huili

The washed out & Niven

Khalijah & Khalidah!

JOHNNE TURNED 18 TODAY. A SIGNIFICANT CHANGE IN HIS LIFE.

Sorry,i had to leave early to do my project.

i love u no matter what, even for now whereby everyone seems to be preoccupied with their stuff, u are in my heart nevertheless.
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Dont blush LOL. Special affections treatment only valid during birthdays!

2007-07-29T12:48:00.000+08:00

awestruck.

frenzy of fireworks.

STAR TROOPERS!

lighted up the whole stage.

He was Aum chio-ing!

hq saw his fellow mate tapping him to go off and he kept striking poses.

LOL!

I was pretty overwhelmed at the crowd,was pretty hard to get to our seats as it was just too crowded. But luckily the whole thing was within control.

This year's national days song arent as nice as the previous years; the sopranos were driving me crazy when i rang up jay and mandy. Really shrilly,i would never learn how to appreciate this fine 'art'.

Luckily the rain stopped otherwise everyone's mood would be dampen, and i think i sang the national anthem for the first time in 4 years. LOL,the national day mood seh!

The laser effects and military stunts were really spectatular, i must say this year they went all out to bring such a great show.And of course i was looking forward to see Ash and frens to perform their power ranger segment. At the end of the show,i saw Ash dancing about the cameramen as shown in the big screen, i was like wahhhhh laann, idiotic attention seeker!

But it seems pretty fun,shall volunteer next year if there is any chance.

2007-07-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

NDP PREVIEW!

weeeeee!

The goodie bag.i took green!

The weird mascots who went abt blowing bubbles and acting perky.

Giraffe and the lion.HOHO!

Patriotic or merely parrots mimicking?

Reminds me of Easter eggs leh~

The REAL patrotic

The lil gal who said the parade guard of honour was not loud enough!

The fly-past.

This lil boy was a real eye catcher and ppl ard kept snapping pictures of him.

(yes,including me)

Too random.

Fellow philippinos.

i like~!

she think she is xiang yun. -.-

eye bags =(

My least fave part of the ndp: Parade.

the f16 or m16 or m18.

Salute and Bomb Burst.

We are Sporeans & We are Suan Kus.

The AH64 were so cool lah,they 'salute' to us.

Shit,i forgot what this is.

Under the sea.

Jelly-fishes

I like this,it make me feel like Sailormoon!

ME and HUI KHOON

Descending firewrks.

Great effects

The fan that wow me.

SO NICE & COOL & WHATEVER GREAT ADJECTIVES U CAN COME UP WITH?

Okay,im like frigging zzzz right now.

Shall update abt the whole ndp experience later.

But to sum it up,it was really enthralling,the laser effects were supremely cool shit and the way the whole show just navigate abt smoothy in marina bay was beyond coolness.

Those who have tickets shld really go watch it,or if u dun have,u could just hang around the area to check the fireworks, make me WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

tml watching the simpsons with fellow saikang warriors,(ISF mates), i think i need to have more than 24 hrs per day, happily packed.

2007-07-28T13:19:00.000+08:00

Let the nightmares be erased

The songs to be sung freely

and the love to be set soaring once again.

2007-07-26T20:18:00.000+08:00

So many things can happen within a day,affectin' me and my future.Once again,i screwed up,it's always the after-effects that keeps jabbing into my mind. Another regret to add to my list. I cant afford to make another mistake or else those stress and aniexty attacks will come back to haunt me.

my mother told me that my bastard of a father withdraw almost all of his CPF that was supposed to pay for the housing loan thing.Once again,making the situation unstable.I really hate him to the core,why dont he just leave and get out of sight? It's being almost a decade, life w/o him spells peace but from time to time he comes back to give us hell.

Hell that we dont deserve, irresponsible fucker. i feel no love for someone so cowardly .And maybe u may feel sympathetic towards my situation, but all this just made me stronger and i would never ever shrunk away from responsibilty.

It just seems so unfair that he goes away scot free and we have to cope with the burden.

so fucked-up now.

2007-07-25T22:39:00.000+08:00

The birthday girl is the one with the 'rocky' package!

Yuwen!

I'll be too free to name dem all'

Me,qun,johnne

The one who loves to shove me in pictures!

2007-07-25T22:15:00.000+08:00

Fuck reality,sometimes it's just so harsh.Ultimately we will all cope but it just hurts so badly to see you go,starting afresh in a totally different environment.

It's really hard to express my innermost feelings, it's being really great having u around although u werent by my side 24/7, u were practically my prime in bowen times. the one who was beside me through all my woes,joys,ugliness and my times of eccentricity.

Even when we drifted apart,we were of lesser in contact. u were constantly in my mind,i hope to pull u up when u said u tried too hard.

at the very least u tried. Dont be a ponder-er no more.Really thank u for being a part of my life.

Lets spend more quality time before the dreadful day comes, and pls dun act like a white chick and get beaten up in a foreign place.

I LOVE U WONG LIAN YA!

HPY HJR~

2007-07-24T22:12:00.000+08:00

cooked with luv! ^^

Enticing?

The pasta Zhiwen and i cooked.Topped with lotsa mozzarella cheese! He thinks he is a SNAG(Sensitive New Age Guy) cos he claims to like cooking?haha.

spent some quality time with him, I LOVE YOU!

2007-07-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was

YUWEN's 18th BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!
Happy Birthday,u Dangling piece of shit.i love u so!

Celebrated at Billy Bombers @ Heeren,really thankful for the ppl whom turned up as this year despite busy new life.

-Lianya,Huiqun,Johnne,Kenneth
-Yingrui,Huizhi,Jac,Lan Xuan,Xavier
-Hanafi,Indren.

Camwhored after the whole makan session and headed to Cineleisure to pool. Hope to have more meet-ups not only on special occasions like birthdays,i miss everyone many many!pictures to be up soon yeah.

2007-07-21T15:01:00.000+08:00

drugged~

SWINGGGG~

smelly armpit~

mimicks kenneth~

need sun so badly.

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Weather went bonkers when we were at Punggol Park.Slight drizzle then sunshine. Then a fuckin' heavy rainpour which made everyone ran for the nearest shelter.

Excluding me becos i was walking with a slight limp, cos of thu's thing and fri's falling down the stairs in school!

So today was really a bloody hinderance to me~went to hq's hse,she fell asleep and when i tried to wke her up,she looked at me in a daze and said ''WHO ARE YOU?' IDIOTIC GAL!

Went to Woodlands to meet Zhiwen,Jay,Mandy & Aizhen. Ate dinner at the checkpoint there,real amusing lah,the dishes time didnt tally well and we had like seafood soup first then rice with nothing?!but anyhow,it tasted real sumptous lah,but i feel like shitting half-way when i ate.LOL.

went to titanic area and chatted abit.before heading our separate ways home.

im really glad to be with someone i really adore, blessings are a bonus. But just being with u makes my day already =)

2007-07-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

.Leadership Course at Buona Vista.

Eerie woman at the back! GIS!

stupid camel -.-

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Today was a surprisingly fun-filled day.It was more of a teamwork than leadership course though.Broke into teams to earn pts.

Me,Giselle,Ningxin,Von,Zhiwen,Jay,Is,Bob,Ashok,Yuvin,Ash,Razila,Bam and some other isg & h were the blue banadas,we called ourselves the 'Niggas'! Like wth,i know!

did 5 stations

-Square area where we had to squeeze all and hold each other for as long as we can.squeeze like some fuckers,almost fainted when they reduce the size into half!

-The plank & bricks(They called it Acid Rain?),didnt really do much, just kept moving forward.

-The hopscrotch made me 'pai pai', so tricky and we actually can get like alot of pts but we were just suay LOL.

-The skipping part wah,really isnt easy cos need lotsa teamwork and coordination!

-The Human Ladder, i was the runner. a mean tiring feat but was really worth it.

our grp tied with another grp, we nearly almost win seh! BUT NVM,WE ARE ALL THE CHAMPIONS!!!!! WEEE~

really glad to see everyone so enthusastic and everyone particpated actively,though we were all drained out at the end. would like to try the rock wall though~~~~

what was the coolest was that no one squabbled over who was pulling the team down and we were all having great great fun yeah?

I almost forgot about the MOU thingie.like totally fucking cheebye, i doubt they even notice that we decorated the auditiorium beh. was telling zhiwen that we shld hang chillis,bringals and garlics to attract their attention!but nvm, what's done is already done.

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2007-07-18T20:27:00.000+08:00

CHUNKY CHUNKY POST~

Had a fever few hours ago and now it broke. damm it it just happened suddenly.Finally finished decorating the auditorium, we were a bunch of spastics when we were at the receiption area,started playing around with the balloons.

Started this 'boxing balloons'' game and they started tugging on the strings forth and back so it would bounce. From afar,i was smiling to myself cos they were like lil kids amusing themselves.

i think this is the 10th week, and flashing back to the very first week, we were all extremely polite to one another and could only give a appraisal of our characters merely based on our impressions.now i guess we could list a stream of our likes & nots' and laugh freely at one another.

and i was deleting my hp inbox the other day, and Mandy scolded me as a skinny bimbotic bitch. Cmon to think of it,it's pretty true, *SMILES BIMBOTICALLY.

And i guess everyone has settled now and ease well into ISF. Jay or shawal said ISF stands for International Sai-kang Federation.How true. omg, this post is like so weird, but i typed so much already.and just to let u guys know,it really has been a great time with u guys all this while.

wah lan,this doesnt sound like me. i shld add a series of vuglarities and lame things.looking forward to friday =D Pocanhontas!!! and Zhiwen of course!

2007-07-17T20:14:00.000+08:00

i wish to play in the rain right now.
not bored but i think as we grow older, we just have that fugly word of 'restriction'.

if i were to buy a happy meal right now and play in the playground and scream shrilly, i probably get arrested.okay,maybe not to that extreme,probably some motherfucker would snap a picture of me and post it in STOMP.

This week is packed. I guess everyone is shagged right now,heng the project deadline is extended.or else we will be walkin' zombies for the remainder of the week.

sometimes i think my inquisitivity just earned me more questions and doubts. Funnily enough, reassurance would have to come from myself to solve all.

God was kind to me to rain that particular day.It made me refreshed.

He sure is unpredictable.

2007-07-16T00:50:00.000+08:00

RANDOM DOM DOM KINGDOM!

i am like so gay now,they have Pocahonatas + Beauty & the Beast at Youtube!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FKmoFrU6MJk

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7VeU8QQ8LMs&mode=related&search=

PURE ORGASM FOR NOSTALGIC DISNEY HUGGERS~!

2007-07-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

The last few days i have been

-reading the newspaper religiously.

-busily boycotting the Harry Potter movie cos i want people to read the darn book!

-having stressful sleep attacks( i dunno how to explain this phenomenon,but they call it sleep paralysis?)

-surpass my sms bill.

-learnT that mouse actually gt infra-red and bluetooth?

-saw hanafi and chiatlin and seeing all those books make me really nostalgic for bowen.

-out of the house but i got eat my mummy's dinner!!!!!

-know what is to love and to be loved! (Gives a BERKY GLEEFUL FACE!)

-caught in the RAIN!

2007-07-13T20:22:00.000+08:00

Was incredibly lucky to escape 'exposure' twice.And who would be so pandang to say Friday the 13th is an incredibly inauspicious day?

Have this feeling that everything would be leaking out sooner or later,Arrgh~ It's really hard to control my actions at times, and my face is like a whiteboard.Every expression is shown out.

It's in the air.
Take a sniff,suck it in and devour it while it lasts.

2007-07-13T10:32:00.000+08:00

HI!

Mrs Ema if u are reading this!

HAHA!

2007-07-10T21:39:00.000+08:00

Taken sometime back~

Horrible windstruck hair~!

TA DAH =P

2007-07-10T21:11:00.000+08:00

every move now bears a consequence.

remember that well.

2007-07-09T16:21:00.000+08:00

SO CUTE!

First day of school spells SIANSATION~!
Messy Messy,we were like lost sheep all around the school.Having breaks constantly?really pekche with the screwed-up school system at times.

But i guess first day is to ease us up.

On a brighter note,Ms Olinda is no longer teaching us.LOL,really relieved. A new bohemian teacher called Mrs Ema is teaching us TPS,from the way she carrys herself and her experience,she seems to be a compete teacher.

no lessons except bzf today.Conclusion: Mr Liao is a weirdo who keeps contradicting himself and that signature sinister smile is honestly freakin' me out la~

though i saw the sunburned people suffered today,I STILL WANNA GO SUNTAN LEH.I WANNA BE SUNSHINE GAL LOL. last wk of july still on?

ending my post here.i gotta slpp.i only slept for 2 hours!
*slp deprived mode

2007-07-09T15:58:00.000+08:00

.BACKTRACK. L to R : Mandy,Zhiwen,Me & Ningxing.

i exposed my other 'face'.

phone booths are our props~

I like this alot =)

Deprived of food.

2007-07-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

The following is the philosophy of Charles Schultz, the creator of the "Peanuts" comic strip. You don't have to actually answer the questions. Just read the e-mail straight through, and you'll get the point.
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1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America.
4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize.
5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winner for best actor and actress.
6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners.
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How did you do?The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Acheivements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.
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Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one:
1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special.
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.
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Easier?The lesson: The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards.They are the ones that care.

2007-07-07T19:55:00.000+08:00

Thanks to those that who helped me although i was disgustingly drunk and idiotic.
i apologise for that ugly scene.

i did what i ought to do. it's unfair to me, but u have no idea how fucked-up everything is.
Its not that u are nt understanding but it's that in this situation,everything is hard.

And again we are not each other,difficulties are unseen. If u think im stressing u out, yes,u are right.

thank you and sorry.

2007-07-06T02:16:00.001+08:00

Heading towards Danger.

Butterfly die already.

another psp siao member.

Kranji Express is LOVE. <3>

Peanut & Ah Bing Mei.

im kissin (insert his name) not HIM!

Liternally,the path to hell.

some freak with a slimy long tail.

They told me to recycle.i saved a tissue paper =)

*rolls eyes.

Being 'raped' by mosquitoes!!!!

EVIL FUCKIN' BASTARDS THAT SHOULDNT EXIST IN THE WORLD! ROAR!!!!!!

still got alot of pics, nothing thrilling i can assure you.

NATURE SUCKS TO THE CORE.

My personal recount for the project will be a laugh.

*Grins evil DAMON smile.

but dont worry i will bullshit my way through how nature is my best friend and all the crap.

yes,im very bitter now~

Lesson learnt:

Mother Nature is a Bitch and Father Nature is in the

same league.

2007-07-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

-Got bitten by tonnes of mosquitoes. cheebye.
-Shitted excessively when i got home. fuck.
-Not enough sleep right now but i gotta do my tps work.double fuck.
-July babies so many,have to plan bdays. knncb.
-Hey wait,do i have a bf right now? WAKILALA!

i need a hug badly right now =(
and yes,that is a hint!

2007-07-05T12:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday~

went to rp to meet Yuwen and the rest.Hung out at the supposedly 'microwaved' cafe till yuwen left to meet ash for kboxing.We then played the board game ''Game of Life' which was really fun as our reactions were damm spastic.And we acted like mutes at the end of the game.

Today~

Only part of the day has started.Going to Sugei Boloh later with Mandy & Ash for final photographs to be taken. And we can FINALLY reach to a conclusion.WEE!

2007-07-04T13:09:00.000+08:00

Mandy's double happiness?

Initially when i saw her lugging a big plastic bag,i thought she had received the present from Jessica and all. Then she say no la,this is from my other friends.And i was LIKE WTH,two big stitchs later leh!

waited for the rest to come including Mrs Angie Lee.She is the new transformer,'Stardust'.Omg la,when she left us at about 8-9 plus,i shouted'' bye,stardust!' and she sprunkled imaginerary star dust on us all. -.-

thehungryghosts:Mandy,giselle,jessica,ningxin,aizhen,zhiwen,jay,
ashok,ash,shawal,angielee

photos with aizheeeen.

anyhow,halfway through the steamboat,Keying and friends(mandy's) turned up to surprise her.Which i think was really sweet.awwww~ and mandy cried because her face was scalded by the water.LOL,no la,cos she was touched.

Everyone got 'electrified' by the fuckin' hot butter. That is one of the reasons why i loathe steamboats,really! Quite fun anyhow,with all the lalas,clams and silly people.

http://thehiddensociety.blogspot.com/ (for more details and personal recount of the birthday girl.)

headed to the esplanade,fuckin lots of cockroaches.Talked,actually i was more of listening to Wong Zhiwen legacy stories cos i was pretty tired.hope that Mandy like her birthday celebrations!

i only slept at 4am.Because i had to settle some stuff.WAH LAO,dunno why when i wake up,my shoulders were fuckin stiff,and i remembered Shutter.*shudders.okay stop scaring myself.

AH MORT stop it lah!

(i cant find the shutter ghost sitting on the shoulder thing lei)

2007-07-03T00:38:00.001+08:00

MANDY'S ELEPHANT EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
u jumping bean,stay pretty always!

ps: omg,so ps for the mistake in e ppt.but hope u like it!

2007-07-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

Octopus Penis =p

Megathon looks real slick~

BumbleBee gets the most scenes instead of Opitmus prime leh.

So hot la,i bet even when she is digging her pisai,she can set u guys' heart on fire!

Caught Transformers just now. REALLY VERY VERY NICE.Even if u are a girl who thinks robots are silly things,u should really go watch it. Hilariously action-packed.

wah lao,i am like frigging pissed after the movie.i realised i had my period YET AGAIN.I went to buy pad at Carrefour,long queue.And already,i was very panicky as i was afraid of staining my pants.

This auntie held up the queue because her lean pork was actually $2.85,and she argued with the cashier.Like wth,evryone was realy pekche now,and i ask her can she please let the others pay first because she was obviously holding the queue(and the more the blood flowing down my pp).

she said the machine was faulty.okay~this china woman behind me muttered sacrastically aloud ''wah,sporeans!'' and i felt like kicking her arse back to her maiden country.

And this stupid act class guy behind kept rushing the poor cashier,he said faster,faster! and give this damm diao look. UGLY UGLY PATRONS!

and yes time will tell.
hearts are to be broken but lies would stop weaving.
i love ur tender kiss.good luck.

2007-07-01T20:58:00.000+08:00

It's being like 35886576272 days since i last spend my weekends at home.

my mum told me gleefully that she took bus 159 instead of 22 as she was transferred to another place for work.

And this old lady who usually takes the same bus as her shouted to her that she boarded the wrong bus.But my mum didnt bother to explain,and just waved happily good-bye to her.

so bimbo-ish right?

and the worst thing was the bus driver asked her whether the old lady was her grandmother,she said ''No,its my MOTHER!'' -___ -

LIKE WTH! she is more random than me.

2007-06-30T19:58:00.000+08:00

Friendship

sometimes we just need to make an effort.
an effort to keep in contact,a mere call or even a short sms.
but it seems to be of no avail when u know the person is already in closure.

seemingly an act of ''i assume u dont care about me no longer when u have new friends and other things to occupy your time''

i honestly am at a loss,when everything is just pointing to the dead end direction.u may say its all too late to salvage everything. and what we have now is only memories?

2007-06-29T13:42:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY~

went to take testimonial and the o-lvl cert fro Bowen. God,i was like so suay.my slipper broke and i rushed home like a siaocharbo to change.i was practically runnning to the bus stop because i was late to meet Lianya,this guy called me and ask where i was going.I thought he was my cousin so i answered all his qns,it turned out to be Derek lah!

When i reached school,already very hot,sweating and pekche.the bloody security guard refused to let me in. WHY?

because i was wearing sleveless! Like PLEASE LAH! i gt shave my armpit one,i wont scare off my lovely bowenians. Then the stupid woman kept insisting ''Nono,u will get me fired.'' -_____-

Mrs Danapal came by to see what the bloody commontion was abt,and instantly i thought i was a the motherfucker of all unluckiness becos she was guaranteed to give me some lecture. But instead she scrunched up the powdery red(black) of hers and say 'Go in.

Went to oosps opps later. during the bus trip there,this indian guy was sleeping and he was drooling! it was one long stretch of saliva down to his shirt! me and yuwen were both laughing and cringing.

the rest im lazy to type out but just hope that hq and dave would work things out.Maybe the next trip to the nude restaurant would be more enoyable,dont let the ambience go to waste bah.

2007-06-28T11:11:00.000+08:00

a strong love to ruin photos.

me,F1 and the ice ice baby!

detect a very horny,i mean hungry mandy behind.

all the fringed head.

2007-06-26T21:27:00.000+08:00

GREAT DAY TODAY.

went to abt 4 places today within Kranji. As usual,nature isnt something worth saying much abt. At least farms,as stinky and unappealing it is,has some life to it.May it be the horny threesome frogs or 18 yr old bonsai plants worth $300+ or the very food deprived kois.

as usual,i feel i was temporaily being transported to some ulu parts of Msia.

Mandy was exceptionally perky and hyper today,(Hey bitch,we videoed down how u skip and bounce ard,U KNOW?) But Ash was kinda emotional,we conclude male pms.haha.

and after i made amendments,i feel relieved and free from regret.
weeeeeee~~~~~~~~ yipeeee~~~~~woooooooooo~

i just have to say i have my own reasons for being such a mysterious bitch.
Maybe i am just asking for trouble now when i made my decision to stay on,all i need now is time,support and understanding.everything will be revealed in time.

im picturing the worst case scenerio,i dont have high hopes,as bitter as it sounds,
but all i know is at least i wont lose someone i really like.i cant stop ppl from forming opinions of me,but i would try to defend us.

aiyah.fuck la. some things are so hard to explain.

2007-06-26T11:51:00.000+08:00

it took me one whole night to realise how i acted in such a impulsive yet rational way.wth was i thinking? it's as though i threw away my pursuit of happiness.this time,i really screw up my own chances big-time.

Makin' amends later.i hope he will forgive my harshness.even if it's a BIG FAT UGLY NO,at least i tried bah.

i wont let go and regret once again.

2007-06-25T23:36:00.000+08:00

a well-spent day today.

i love how natural the kids are with their multiple expressions and actions. Why dont i possess a cute lil bro?!?!

but most importantly,the particular guy that treated the kids with unexpected gentleness and patience.totally tug my heartstrings!

that was one endearing sight~

2007-06-24T21:33:00.000+08:00

MY FACE,MY NARCISISM.

timon.

fugly and pregnant.

i look like my mum.

when xXDead WaWaxX meets the Camel.

2007-06-24T00:08:00.000+08:00

i have a new-found revolution growing on my face: BLEMISHES!!!
more on my left cheek but still i am deeply traumatized now.

AAAAARGH. the mirror never fails to remind me abt it and oh! how much i look like my mother lately =p

went to yishun for nasi bryani with the yellow man.
went to lucky plaza to eat the indon-malay cusine. yummicious lah!but too small portions though.went to marina square to take Huiqun's ndp preview tickets!

no wonder i shitted just now.i dont like shitting in public toilets,i feel so pressurised for time and the muffling of ahem* noises.

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as long i have a clear conscience,i should not be afraid of anything.
sometimes i think everything happens too fast.actually i dont ask for anything in return,so dont feel pressurised to.i am already like fuckin' appreciative of what are u doing now.

some things should remain the same.and we have no obligations.it's the best for all of us.ya,u know who u are lah.

2007-06-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

http://huiqun.livejournal.com/
http://huiqun.livejournal.com/
http://huiqun.livejournal.com/

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAA!
such a motherfucker but funny gal.

2007-06-22T21:57:00.000+08:00

Liar liar,vagina on fire.

2007-06-22T02:02:00.000+08:00

i feel happy and stressed at the same time.isnt that absurd?
reciprocated.i feel really lucky,its like some unexpected windfall.

stressed,to be judged upon.and the other obstacle is my own course.

=) =(

2007-06-21T22:54:00.000+08:00

MASS UPDATE!!!!!!

with the new AMK hub,we actually forgot abt juilbee =(

dont ask.really.

Voldemort. and the evil white bitch.

2007-06-21T22:24:00.000+08:00

To sum up these few days?

-Botanic Gardens
-Bukit Timah Nature Reserve
-Farmart

Felt like going to a total different world,the motherfucker nature.Needless to say,nature is not my kinda thing.im not some tree hugger and flora person.

Went on a mosquitoe shopping spree.
Pray that i dont get dengue,it isnt worth my health all for one fucky project.
ugh!!!!!

Swan lake (4 pathetic statue swans and 2 live swans waddling a size of a football field.)

Bukit Timah (Only for the sicko nature lovers who adore steep slopes/dry leaves/and tranquilty of insects mating.)

Farmart ( i only rememebr the guilty shopkeeper saying they are nt ready,and i saw they stuff like 5 birds in those tiny fish tanks. wth!)

will be bed-ridden tml at home.
LOL.

2007-06-21T22:02:00.000+08:00

forgot to post the arab street pictures.
here u go anyhow~

conceptual shophouses.

armpit poser.

orange beetle.

humping.

Ash and Mandy.

eavesdropping?

osama & marilynn?!

feeling like this lately!

happy nigger~

2007-06-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

the path that i carved for myself seems uncannily unsure now.
Cliche as it sounds,i'll let nature take its course.

more bites tml.
OUCH.

2007-06-18T21:44:00.000+08:00

Life's a bitch.i feel like that particular bitch now.
Bravery and impulsiveness are two different things.
just like love and infatuation.

2007-06-18T21:01:00.000+08:00

i could only summarise yesterday as a booze and snooze fest.
If only some people could keep their itchy hands to themselves,things would be fine.

and thank you for being protective of us all although u werent sober.really appreciative.

And a big thank you to Angie for opening the chalet and all

tps project tml.i wanna pang sai.

2007-06-17T16:51:00.000+08:00

a short update on Angie's chalet.

spotted:raymond,yumiko,ash,yuvin,bam,ashok,zhiwen,jay,shawal,steven,
ernie,jessica,aizhen,ningxin,giselle,mandy,rachel and angie's friends.

quite a dramatic one,i must say. Spend most of the time biking outside.12 people on double bikes.And i guess my phobia for bikes has gone.Shawal is a good experienced rider,Rachel is Tokyo Drift whereas Zhiwen is a chatline,haha.

all i know my arse hurts like fuck during the aftermath,and i was roaring in pain.plus i was having my period.

half of the group got drenched in the rain and witnessed an unpleasant gangfight at Macs.Hope everyone dont get sick.

quite a 'dirty' place there,abt half of the gang sighted.suay,i was kinda shocked and went quiet for awhile and zhiwen made us all go back chalet to clean our feet.'pa dang' lah,but better to believe.

okay,gotta go prepared for the bbq later.
cya!