Can you catch my breath

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1:30 AM

Wednesday, October 3

Okay,dancingwhores is going private.It's being great blogging and seeing responses,but it's time for me to go all private.

I can write anything without thinking how it may affect anyone,a blog that cant express it's feeling=defeating its purpose.I can post whatsoever obscene stuff Haha and rant on and on.

Before i go off,things arent the same anymore.Many things have happened,i have changed,my environment has 'evolved'.Dont worry for me,just gimme the benefit of doubt.It isnt to please everybody when u cant even please urself,u wonder what exactly is the meaning of all?

Wont be deleting this blog,u can play pokemon battles inside,Johnne =)

Being blogging about 'itinerary' posts,no signifiance to me.There are always issues i wanna voice out.So today being the last entry,i shall be truthful.

Everyone changes,it's only a matter of time and whether the change is big and impactful.I have seen friends turning materialistic,friends completely closing themselves up,me myself becoming no longer the 'no tempered' but im still as soft-hearted LOL.me becoming this bloody spilt personality,and emotional wreck.

I always cling on to the past,good or bad.But i think it's my waay of life,and things have always not being smooth-sailing for me.

Even when we disapprove the changes amongst us,it's a fact that we have to adapt and move on.U wont be reading this but as times goes by,acceptance will take place.There is no need to feel guilt upon what feelings u caused to others because ultimately no one can judged u for who u are.

Even if u screwed up once,twice or so,nothing beats the fact that u navigate ur own way and in everything u do,it bears a consequence.

if i had a choice,i would go totally wild and crazy now.i always wanted a change of lifestyle.There are many things i always wanted to do but i always have restrictions or i could say i procrastinate too much.

Im not happy with my life right now.Im not stable right now actually,i was never the over-achiever but i sometimes wish to make a good impact. undo all my wrongs and words i said.Am i capable of being committed?

All this sounds like bullshit,but life's a bullshit,so no harm adding to the pollution.

Memories it shall store no more.

2:49 PM

Tuesday, October 2

He calls these 'cultural' excursions.I'll say i like the unconventional way of dating instead of walking aimlessly in town and watching movies.

yesterday was a fusion.Little India for Thosai,really generous servings and they refilled ur gravy for FREE! and it's bloody cheap too!/Chinatown for Rooftop Bar (i have this craving for Apricot Brandy again!)and Clark Quay to get soaked in the night atmosphere.

The 'cicak' man!

the gmax reverse bungeey was like woah weee~ Nah,i didnt play that,i have a fear of thrill rides.

This guy in the middle who looks like John Locke from Lost(Not because he's botak!),his little daughter was there,and we had this evil impulse to tell her ''Ur father's never gonna come back',or 'Say bye bye to ur daddy.'

Haha,i know so bad right.Anyway i think the people up there were really crazy.They didnt really scream but instead they laughed.Yes,i think their idea of a joke is being suspended mid-air.

this shall be the last entry.Im still deciding which one i like the most and whether to keep it private.shall inform u guys.bye.

2:16 PM

Monday, October 1

DONT GET MARRIED IF U PLAN TO BE UNFAITHFUL.
IT'S GUYS LIKE YOU WHO PULL DOWN THE REST.

GO AWAY.

1:23 AM

Come and cam-whore with meeeeeeeee~

my beautiful boy!

we have an 'angelic' glow!

the one who keep pushing me today.

i still love u anyhow.

SanaSa day!

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Just when i finally found a really lovely skin for my xanga skin,it prompt it cant be saved and lotsa crap.Aaargh,anyway im still a noob at xanga layouts and stuff.

Kenneth shocked the hell outta me today,and for a wild moment,i actually toyed with the thought of being totally wild like him and go ROAR! I know the kick wont last but heck,life's too short to be a stay-downer.

but have to control myself for now.got the feeling the next one will be wen hui! =x

Went to study at Compass point,well i re-read James Patterson's Suzanne's Diary For Nicholas,it's so bloody touching that i had to touch my thigh and Hq started touching me.LOL.

Holidays means a reading fest for me anyway.

i borrowed a book on manners(i totally need it,),and a light read by Celia Brayfield.

Waited for johnne to join us,saw Mrs iszal and her baby boy at kfc.They look great together,her boy is like really big now.I saw Von,but paiseh,i was too slow to react and only gave a 'AAAAAA' and she sped off in her F1 speed to work. -.-

Din get the airport job,MRS LEE,DOES THIS MEAN I CAN GO CHINA?!CAN U DUN BE SO LAST MINUTE ANYMORE?

12:29 AM

Sunday, September 30

Have been fiddling with xanga & lifejournal.Maybe changing to a more personalised blog or switching to a private blog.The codes and layouts are killing meeeee.

many things im yearning to express out.Everyone deserves a lil bit of privacy every now and then,and the dirrty lil secrets we have.

1:36 PM

Friday, September 28

scrape by the bike's tyre.

Budget Neo-prints!

Ash say 'Woah,so cool'!

what's with the eyes?!

Mr F isnt very happy with Pocahontas.

new generation of 'pocong'!

near changi airport.

Night cycling started at Pasir Ris then to Loyang,Tampiness and finally Changi.It was pretty fun if all of our buttcheeks didnt hurt much and there was no rain!

Ash & Ashok,Me and Zhiwen(Double bike) while Raymond,Shawal,Mandy,Jay had their own bikes to navigate.

The highlight of the trip was definitely cycling at the expressway,while we were cycling,i was like omg,we all soo going to die or get caught by the TP.We were all like Heng when we finally reached safety of normal roads.

And to Changi Village,we saw a couple of 人妖姐姐.They were really foxy.The funniest thing was suddenly one shouted 'Oooei' or was it boy?and sashayed her way over,the way she walked was like sooo vain,her shoulders and hips were moving as though she was dancing.

And everyone started scurrying away,the boys laaa.We rested near changi airport,and enjoyed the night breeze.The type u lift up ur armpits and go Woohoo~Then it started to rain,spoiler.And it was just one mad dash to the nearest shelter.

The double bikes were separated at shell,and the rest at block 233.and we cycled to blk 244 or something,we were shivering cos the rain and wind just keep gushing into us.And something so disgusting happen that i would be traumatised for life.

Ash and i were inside the lift as it was warmer,and we started laughing at some random thing and he suddenly said'Im going to fart' and i thought he was kidding.But he did,the 'poof' sound!what the heck?!the agony of me alone to smell his omg.
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There was some miscommunication along the way,hope everyone is okay.Some of us went home,while the remainder stayed at Downtown east macs.I stepped out of macs after a nice hot tea,eager for home.And it rained.So we ate laksa and slowly walked to the carpark area,it BLOODY RAINED AGAIN.

We had to return the bikes and so bo pian,we cycled and walked in the rain.Im sorry for scaring the others with my cheery wannabe sing-along routine of 'I hate todayy,it sucks big time'.No one joined in my singing,cept for super reluctant Zhiwen.He only wanna fu yan me=(ello?it was supposed to keep u warm leh!

And then it was home,and i slept like a log.

11:33 AM

Wednesday, September 26

It's like a crazy morning for me right now. Im not sleep-deprived now,i have like a major overdose of Zzzz.

im getting seriously freaked out by the changes,the symptons seems to tally,bloody hell this is like one irreversible act and im like getting clammy hands right noww.Aaargh.

These few days,i realised im capable of so much damage,it does not mean breaking the ice cream store's handle and my room's doorknob ah.Any further destruction,and i swear man,i wont be able to forgive myself.sorry love.

i wanna be able to continue to love u and that's what matters most.

*Starts playing Truely Madly Deeply and ur new lamp could come in handy right now.

im like such a suggestive arse lately,hehe.

we wear our vices on our sleeves now.
The lil defects doesnt mean we are all going down.

or again,maybe not.

6:44 AM

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U know it when a stream of blankness devours u.

when everyone has the same dreamy smile.

it doesnt matter the exchange of body heat is from someone u know.

U are not just soaking in the atmosphere,u're part of it.

creating it.

6:15 AM

Saturday, September 22

im not angry,just disappointed.
im not breaking down just easing in.
words can be manipulating creatures.
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im sorry.

3:13 PM

Friday, September 21

Today,allow me to be a emo bitch.
im not sucidical lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

U know what i wanna say to u.i love u for who u are,u are worth it,go and pamper urself.But still u know the one im most worried is u.maybe tml i can understand more but still remain sober and look out for urself.
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Though u always dilly dally in watsons and push me to strangers,i love u still.Maybe u wont be reading this cos u will be busily dl-ing songs instead,but still can u go tanning?i think u look better dark,being korean doesnt mean u have to be fair what.

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If i say something truely erxin,i will be mocked by u guys.But before i have any regrets,i really love u two.Even when u guys teased me and tskked me constantly,u guys are undeniably part of my life. I LOVE TAN HUI KHOON AND LIM YUWEN!

Hui khoon,i always say u think u very chio ah.but u are really pretty and charming in ur own way.Dont be so shuang,and go hehe in ur smug smile.Stay focused now.

Yuwen,i actually wanna cry when u ask me to understand becos i was very emo just now.I watch the tyra banks show abt dwarfs and u make me wanna cry more.Dont so pekche liao,LAO DAO.u will always be someone i love n can ka jiao.

U have no idea how much i wanna kiss u but slap u at the same time.honestly.

they are wanting to be mailed.where are u,WONG LIAN YA?!

Are u sleeping now?Are u busily packing ur bag of pink stuff?Are u stuck in the lecture hall?Are u kissing a ah moh cutie? Are u missing me?I MISS YA REAL BAD NOW.

7:25 PM

Thursday, September 20

Kenneth went to book a court at the stadium for the badminton.Which is laughable for me as i totally suck at badminton,just wanna play for fun.but real thanks ah.

Got really sweaty and all hyped-up,we should do this often!

Went eat with him and meet the rest for the marathon forms.Tml still need to go back school to hand in the forms.Seems like even in holidays,i have to go back frequently.Results out on 3rd oct?Hell,im like still in slumberland when i was told to check online.

Being closing one eye lately,it amuses me because in the past,i would just ROAR out all my displeasures and demand a change.well well well,we'll see how things goes.It never occured to me that this would affect me and another thing came up today,courtesy.

It really means alot to me.haha sounds like wannabe goodie,but i think it's the basic manners u can offer.

Last point to make,if i say NO,it means a firm confirmed No.Stop bugging me already,seriously,u disgust me,ur motives.dun ask me anymore before i scream the fuck outta u.im like so irritated now.

10:36 PM

Wednesday, September 19

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Okay,before i go suffer and die in the midst of running,i have to blog about my 'achievements'.i cleaned up my room and finally unwrapped my corkboard,but found out i have no thumbtacks or pins or whatever u call those needles.

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so i used double-sided tape,cos i was just too anxious mann. It's not complete yet,n i realise i dun have Khalijah's pic,dammm it lah,hope she can autograph for me. And why on earth should i put HIS photo,cos it's a lovely yet painful reminder on why should we practise self-control.

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Yuwen,if u think ur desk is messy.Mine can rival urs.Lim BUUUUU.

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I vaccummed the fake roses cos they were dusty.I think im a lil haywired from all the cleaning and NO WAY AM I GOING TO BE A HOUSEWIFE in the future,i really cant find contentment in cleaning up the house,cooking meals and waiting for my hubby to come back ALMOST DAILY.

Sooo aargh,ADULT and sad case.Okaay,gotta run... LITERALLY.

2:06 PM

Monday, September 17

Well,it seems that consistentancy doesnt exist in my world.Freedom is sought both ways.i know what am I capable of this time, stepping out my comfort zone and having a breakthrough.

Leave it all behind and dont turn back,u stupid bitch.

It scares me and probably you when i have millions of thoughts running through my mind at night. Night seems to be replenishin' stupid thoughts at times.

Im sorry if i neglect anyone at this phrase,be it be my friends,my bf or even my mother.i want everything.This time,im the over-achiever and i just need to sort it out,really drained out lately.

I think i really should follow that silly book of meditation and start OM-ing my way through life.

Breathe in~ I want to seek peace with life
Breathe out~I AM in peace with myself.

OM OM OM~

Breathing problems and nausea took over today.i seriously dun have time management and sense.

11:16 PM

Sunday, September 16

i have no idea why everything is underlined. AAARGH!

Anyhow,Botak Jones was like orgasm.Really worth the wait of abt 40 mins,they had really generous servings! About 12 ppl were wrking there,but they were really nice and friendly despite the busy hour. But it was pretty commercialised,,they even sold BJ merchadises like caps and tees -.-

I FINALLY HAVE 12 HRS OF SLP NOW.IM LIKE ONE HAPPY BITCH WEE!

fish and chips!

The gorilla or grizzy bear?

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no lah,it's Lele Almightly.
Giving enlightenment to Zw.

He's singin' while im erm trying to shut him up.

STILL WANNA SING?!

I ALSO CAN DO WANNABE EMO ARTSY FARTSY SHOTS!

i love my wallpaper~

11:04 AM

Saturday, September 15

Bloody disconnection.Type quite a no.of paragraphs and info and nothing is saved.Bloody everything now.

Then somehow i feel misunderstood,i assumed and go 'oh okay'and when things dun turn out my way,i get really dissed off.i dunno what the hell i talking lah.

really hate being deprived of sleep,even when i switched off the bloody phone,there willl always be someone to wake me up.really feel like killing everyone in sight.

OKAY.END OF RANTS!

Was at Mosi cafe in Haji lane ytd.Homely ambience and their morrocan chilli was like havoc to the tongue.Just one dip was enough to ''omg,really so hot ah!?'. Pluck was opposite the cafe, i wanna go there next time.Ice-cream parlour and fashion store merged,lovee the concept.

Was surfing the net and had this great find.This place call Pitch Black whereby it's a mini movie theater,cafe and art shop. Like so ULTRA COOL, im sure it would be a great place to chill out.

REVIEW: http://www.theurbanwire.com/stories/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=1018&Itemid=64

Lovely?

12:14 PM

Friday, September 14

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Soaked in the ambience,ur lemon-stained fingers..

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High up,beneath the bustling noises
chilled-out rock music play.
serenade us under that sky of stars.

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Breathe in and
we realised we have entwined as one,
u are here,and nothing really matters anymore.

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12:28 PM

Wednesday, September 12

ahhh, to think i naively assumed that the soccer match would bring isf & ish together.
Wasnt it supposed to be a friendly match?

Dont get into fights merely because of this, anger management people.

Anyhow,alot of us are not happy with that Adrian guy.the firestarter. Like hello? first u made some fucked-up comment about ite girls being sluts.Please watch your words,do u think u are the elite,if u are one,why are u here?

then abt the racist comment abt our boys really worsen it all lah. U never even participated in the match so like shut up already.

Forget it *make peace not war.
There are better things to blog about.

LIKE the HOLIDAYS!

-Catch up on sleep,u have no idea how deprived i am of that.

-Work,if the airport thing has gd pay and i go through tt interview. last min.

-More time with friends and loverboy!

-i wanna go SUN- TANNING/ MOVIE WATCHING / BAKE CAKE WITH ZHIWEN / PUBBING / SLEEP UNTIL I NO BUTT CRACK.

WEEEEEEEEEEEE!

random: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kBVmfIUR1DA johnne gave me this link,go watch how disturbed that kid is.

6:06 PM

Tuesday, September 11

i ate 6 donuts,yes 6 at one go.Dont try Muchy's,it's a tad too sweet.

I just woke up from a night nap.
Goddd,cant imagine when im pregnant,how horrible i would be.

now i got an insane craving for soup and curry chicken.

After tml,I AM A FREE WOMAN. Just need to attend marathon trainings.I need a job,i need money, i need to spend my time wisely.

my yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away~
i hope we have more days like 505,and we can go crazy & swt and in that lil world holding only us.

9:22 PM

Sunday, September 9

SEPTEMBER 10th, Monday

Bzf was a BiLi PaLa mess today. I did study but not hard enough.I even invented a few stuff in the paper to make up for the blank space =(

Today wasnt a good day,the red tsunami created havoc, i panicked.It came twice within a month,feelin' pretty fragile at the moment.

Today also marks the end of the HUNGRY GHOST FESTIVAL.

Which means more incense paper to be burnt,the smell is overwhelming.Grand Finale what.Studying tml with the others,Gelare is sinful pleasure.

Final pics...

they are really a bunch of dirrty boys.

That shawl was the prop of the day.

Steven the Godfather.(success!)
Aizhen is so lucky.

Jaycares for everyone's welfare.

Pls support http://www.LaoLiuInc.com

Cleopatra? Dominant bitch lah.

pls do not massage my non-existent arse,honey.

Haha.

Ahmohs: the essence and class.

Asians: Let's sell Gui Chup.

(how do u spell that!)

11:07 PM

Initially,Liquid Kitchen was the plan. But we were 'budget' plus i had spend 10 dollars on fortune-telling -.- so we went to Chomp Chomp!

Yuwen,Johnne,Hq,Kenneth!

Kang Kong,Stingray,Lala,Carrot Cake!

this is pure orgasm.

In the beauty shop where kenneth did his eyebrows.

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back tracking to the fortune-telling, it was good.I shuffled cards and got 3 'K's. Which,according to him was the best?He spoke of 'gui ren' helping me through my life,but also spoke of people getting envy of my success and said i was choosy. LOL.

The fortune-teller was a tad too out there,he even talk about newater and we all got kinda okkkaaay. And we started asking really dumb qns towards the end because we were really curious and being our usual idiotic selves.

Hq: Can she go to heaven? (beckons to me.)

Me:then can i 'chen xian'? meaning:becoming a deity

( starts laughing hystercially)

but the fortune teller laughed in response. And afterwhich,i dunno why we became so holy,went to the tua pek gong temple and they went to offer joss sticks.This random uncle came to chat with us about gods.

After eating at Chomp2,we went to to the playground.Johnne is so horny,tell me why are u so sexed-up lately! Haha. I fell off the swing,but luckily only yuwen and hq saw.so paiseh.

BZF AND TPS CA. everyone is aiming for As,this is no longer being contented with being medicore anymore.

11:25 AM

Saturday, September 8

Top Models Inc.

Gotta Be On Top.

Mango ambassedors?

we want FAME!

3:05 PM

First Movements Concert@ Esplanade

Prague Sinfonia Orchestra with Min Lee

We were seated at Circle 3, where we fidgeted for 90 minutes. Really,Classicial music is not our thang. It got really bland to the extent after 15 minutes that we started looking around to see who was sleeping,how that Trumpet player turned an insane shade of red(probably hyperventilating), and i even started playing with my lovely boy's fingers.

Yes,it was that bad,short attention spans.

The dramatic conductor did 2 bloody encores (NO ONE ASKED HIM TO LOH!)and one song is about 15 minutes so we had to sat through another 30 mins of silent agony.

But anyhow it was an eye-opener to all of us, so hey thanks ahh, Bishan Ite for subsiding 15 bucks.

Ate at Macs, and we all had the insane mood to cam-whore at Marina Square. And we starting exhanging shoes,Zhiwen wore Von's high heels,LOL. now he knows the feeling of pain for beauty! Ash wore mine,and it become big loh~

and really ps to Mandy for the cam thing. Actually i was expecting u to shoot me with ur pisai pearls but luckily i was spared. sorry babe.

anyhow,some pictures below. still got more,waiting for ai to send. I want group pics and my Cleopatra and her slave ones especially.

all the men in ISF.

ROAR!

i like this pic cos they block ah mohs behind.

LUV ASIAN CHICKS.

Gis,the walking mannequin.

HAA.

i know u are hungry for me.

Bob Bam Ash Jay

okay,going to the liquid kitchen later. Really miss u guys. We've always had those 'departing' hugs which make me feel both sad and loved. Love u all. muack muack!

1:48 PM