Thursday, August 30
The blessed.
The nonchalent.
The ignorant.
The regretful.
The overachiever.
The peacemaker.
The hopeful.
and last but not least.
The underrated.
Standing by the sidelines and observing the paces of u all, aint as easy as it seemed.
9:00 PM
Wednesday, August 29
Okay,i have to admit im the freaky lil lady who is emo during the nights.
may those minute disputes go away~
may August fade away~
just saw the bday video.Just felt it was sweet in a morbid kinda way.Omg lah,i sound like some 人妖! and i was wondering who was the fierce one that shouted ''fuck la' and after replaying it several times,it was zhiwen!He really scares me sometimes.ha ha.
Exams are in the next following week and we are still in the 'fun' mode of playing card games and being out after school.Time for some group studies and personal revision. Especially for BZF,den after which HOLIDAYS and a change of modules.weeeeee~
Love is trembling happiness.
You never lose by loving, you always lose by holding back.
how true.
4:21 PM
Tuesday, August 28
I dont see what's the pt of having a fuckin' cheebye blog,whereby i have to worry what i write would affect people's thinkings of me,ppl finding fault with me and blah blah blah.im really sorry. In one way or another. There are many things to be left unsaid. Especially under these ugly circumstances,it would seemed highly hypocritical to offer any nice consoling words.Really. Im so overtaken by a series of emotions.EMO! Why do i feel so affected by just merely this? Ever since the last,i have worst-case scenarios jabbing into my mind constantly.This may sound perverse,but maybe right from the start and till now,i wasnt secure.Sometimes,i really hate my frigging ''kindred spirit'' for this kind of situation.I know if i continue being such a 'weighting down my conscience' girl, it would spell the end of it.Stop all ur pretenious acts and start being a real person.
9:00 PM
Sunday, August 26
ur scent; ur sandpaper face against mine
and the whirlpool of emotions.
move on and not hold on to sinful flashbacks.
11:56 PM
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Yesterday's NDP dinner was a total SCAM! Really laughable in a sadist way.
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It was some getai heartlander thing,we were seated furthest from the stage.In fact,we were the very last table.I think the whole thing was called 'Bukit Gombak National Day Celebrations and Variety Show'',the entertainment was honestly scary,this old man belted hokkien songs shrilly and literally blasted our ears.
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it was boringgggg, and everyone just wanna eat and leave.
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Mrs Lee 'conveniently' forgot to tell us that we had to do some proposal/report and plan something for this next year. zhen de hen thanks ah!!!!!!!!!! *beckons middle finger.
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9:28 PM
Saturday, August 25
will i wake up to a beautiful morning with u by my side again?
4:03 PM
Went to the Balcony @ Heeren. Too bad we went there in the late afternoon so the ambience wasnt unleashed to its fullest.But still,it's a really cool place to chill, would like to try the 'sun beds' next.
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Let's go there, ah tan and ah lim! i misss u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Spend some real quality time, the last couple of weeks were really hectic with events after school. It's been a while since i last savoured pure swt blissness. Acting 'adorable' and the endless stream of random silliness in our conversations.i love u baby!
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My definition of my soulmate is my best friend, my companion and my lover all rolled into one.
=) =) =)
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my grilled creamed chicken.(TOO generous portion of vegs though)
His red snapper( with the self-proclaimed kacang puteh peas?)
i seemed to be squeezing his testicles or something.
after much chastising to look normal -.-(hate haywired hair!)
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Dinner later at the Bukit Gombak CC. Aaaargh, it ends at 11.
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God,pls dun ask us to go up the stage and do funny stuff, i would rather watch some spastic kids attempt folkdance or even try to listen some lao kok kok delivering his speech hehe.
2:40 PM
Thursday, August 23
I just need a escape right now.Everything seems so arrrrghhh,,congested?It's so hard to balance everything,im tired physically and mentally.here is a very meaningful quote from the book ''Suzanne's Diary For Nicolas.''Imagine life is a game in which you are juggling five balls. The balls are called work, family, health, friends, and integrity.And you're keeping all of them in the air. But one day you finally come to understand that work is a rubber ball.If you drop it, it will bounce back.The other four balls -- family, health, friends, integrity -- are made of glass. If you drop one of these, it will be irrevocably scuffed, nicked, perhaps even shattered. And once you truly understand the lesson of the five balls,you will have the beginnings of balance in your life.On a random note: I actually overdosed on my medicene for my infection. Hell,it gave me spells of drowsiness,i actually dozed off while talking and periods of hyperness.This goes to show that dun be an ass like me and READ THE INSTRUCTIONS CAREFULLY!
7:34 PM
Tuesday, August 21
8:43 PM
List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:
-Its over!
Answer the following questions :1. The person who tag you is?
-Shirley Your relationship with him/her is?
-bowen schoolmate Your 5 impressions of him/her?
-petite-smart-cheerful-hyper-just adorable!4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
-GIVING ME THIS QUIZ!!! HAHA.5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
-EXCUSE ME,U GOT TISSUE? (i have no idea ,really!)6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
-be a lesbian lala.7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
- nothing.8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
- gives EVIL grin!9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
-cos she is really nice?10.The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
-toss her up in the air11.Your overall impression of him/her is?
-Good things come in small packages.12.How you think people around you will feel about you?
-random,no link weirdo.13.The character you love of yourself are?
-my bad mood wont be infectious.14.On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
-worry wart.15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
-Guan Yin Ma.16.Pass this quiz to 10 persons.
1.Lianya2.Yuwen3.Huiqun4.Najib5.Hanafi6.Johnne7.Mandy8.Jay9.Jeammie10.Cheefong11. Who is no.6 having relationship with?
- some ah moh gal.12.Is no.9 a male or female?
-female.13.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
-affair!14.How about no.8 and 5?
-i dun mind gayness.15.What is no.2 studying about?
-computers?16.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
-when she told me she wanna jump down the mrt track.
17.What kind of music band does no.8 like?
-he said he like BEE GEES. and mainstream chinese pop i think.18.Does no.1 has any siblings?
-a older sis19.Will you woo no.3?
-no, she's a scary but sweet bitch.20.How about no.7?
-i cant stand gfs who can only drink 5 kinds of water.21.Is no.4 single?
-yes.22.What’s the surname of no.5?
-Mohammad?23.What’s the hobby of no.4?
-he likes bands and checking out girls. haha.24.Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
-no link.25.Where is no.2 studying at?
-Rpppppppppp/26.Talk something casually about no.1?
-a pink lover and my siaocharbo=)27.Have you try developing feelings for no.8?
-and get beaten up by my bf no way!28.Where does no.9 live at?
-East coast!29.What color does no.4 like?
-black,red and blue.30.Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
-nah.31.Does no.7 likes no.2?
-no link.32.How do you get to know no.2?
-our virgin year in bowen.33.Does no.1 have any pets?
-nopeeee.34.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?-YES YES YES!!!!!!
8:27 AM
Sunday, August 19
SUPER MASSIVE UPDATES~!
I miss u, it's hard to convey the message. what would he feel? regret? aargh.
Friendly match with ISH and Admin. Mostly of our classboys played, we were cheering and jeering in the stands that i have to admit. And ahem.. we girls saw something 'lovely' we shouldnt see,all thanks to Ash's mischief.`But it was great to see those guys bond with ISH in the field,although one idiot screwed up.we lost 3-0. aww,but there would be a match against Retail on Tues. JIAYOU JINSHU!
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Really bad aiming.
watching the scurrying ants move food -.-(i look so boy boy)
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Was at Vivo to catch 881 with Ashok,Mandy and Zhiwen.It's really an unconventional show about getais, kinda like a hokkien musicial with subtitles.
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And i know some may cringe upon hearing its a local show, but the only part i cringe was when weilian made a appearance.He is so overrated~
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Other than that,i was laughing consistently. We saw jay busy in action at Sushi Tei, din see us though i was glueing myself to the glass pane and gesturing wildly.
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Mandy and i checked out dresses, she bought a white one. I really like the yellow dress in Qoosh but he said it was too transparent so blahhhhhhhhhhh.
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18 Aug Saturday
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Rock climbing at Macpherson ite. GODDDDD, it was tedious.My arms are yelling in agony now!I naively though they would just attached us to a rope and we would just steadily climb up.But no,we had to learn about belaying and do all the safety precautions ourselves, overall it was pretty cool lah.
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Except that it was pretty demoralising when the other experienced rock climbers climbed waay up to like 5 storeys while the rest of us noobs struggled at the very bottom. And one instructor slammed me to the rock wall while i was suspended mid-air,luckily i didnt knock face first.
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Not recommended for people who have fear of heights though.
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Afterwhich i went down to join Ashok,Aizhen,Mandy,Mas,Razila and her bro,Bob,Jay and Zhiwen for the fireworks. We managed to 'chope' seats but it was sooo congested with people.
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When we tried buying food,everywhere was packed to the max, practically all the food outlets had looong queues. So exasperated that we had to walk all the way to Suntec,same situation.we end up eating pastamania on the stairs,pathetic.
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The display of fireworks gathered oohs and ahhs amongst the crowds,but i think only some were worth going gaga over.Razila's brother was really adorable and quirky,i think he's called fiqri?(reminded of fikri haa).But i think the sweetest is having ur lovely beside u.*blush.
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Anyhow,the upcoming 'events' would be overwhelmed with tps CA, walkaton at pasir ris,marathon trainings and the dreaded Napfa, oh and the concert at esplanade. I need a breather man.
8:53 AM
Wednesday, August 15
I dont usually post lyrics but this is one song i feel the most.Chinese lyrics imposes alot of meaning that one can never convey through other languages.
假想敌 蔡健雅
分开感觉原本没那么疼
相爱过程两人都诚恳
平心静气调整或许还能
把他看成老朋友般的同等身份
可惜人都抵不过自尊
不恨听起来太愚蠹
不闻不问怕自已平静的心再沸腾
爱过的人都非得当成假想的敌人
不闻不问却反复提醒自己有伤痕
冷漠的人得在狠下心前先对自己残忍
回忆亲昵口吻亲密眼神
难以平衡暧昧感觉如何能调整
总之界限要清楚划分 以防自己还想要等
10:13 PM
Tuesday, August 14
I knew this day was coming, my first thought incurred in Sec3. that was 3 yrs ago,but of course i didnt harp on this. Escapism seems to be the ideal way out for me.
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Sending Lianya off was really overwhelming. It's as though u cant bear to do so but u know u have to for the sake of better prospects and the tonnes of opportunities in uk. I cried after she went to the departure hall, felt really shitty and sad, it seems like there was so much left unsaid.
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If i could summarise everything within a blog entry,it would be impossible. She was my prime in Bowen, the bestie/crazy/ mother/ sister all in one.
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The one who went through puberty with me
the one whom helped me steal my crush photos in the staffroom.
the one whom could be so crazy yet sensible at the same time.
the one whom could crack me up and break me down.
the one who stood by me during my crucial times.
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Funny thing, its always when one is gone and u start to appreciate that particular person.
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JIAYOU JINSHU!
hpy hjr, no matter where or when. help is always near.
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10:58 PM
Ghost child
not incestous,just cheeky.
LOL.
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U know when u look through those really old photos of ur childhood. Some images may appear vaguely whereas others are strikingly clear?
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I just remember i was a supreme siao lil charbo with tonnes of energy. Those hyperactive and 'fidget is a must' kind. And i once stuffed a tit tat into my nose. -.-
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And Matthew looked so cute last time but now leh?!
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This month has being particularly biased towards Geminis, as in a bad way. A streak of bad incidents. Im like on-off sick and i wish to get through all this nonsense.
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School has been a total blaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah~ Voldey Morty is starting to scare me, the lil threatening , no loud bursts of laughter coming from me during that lesson anymore. wah pianggg.
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It's really hard to juggle everything. I assumed i could, but i think im just too over confident this time. Priortise? or just mere excuses.
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Anyhow,next few days will be sports sports sports.
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Thu- support soccer friendly match evm VS admin or accounting.
Fri-Maybe training for run or stupid Nafa
Sat- Rock climbing, e last time was cancelled.
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9:46 PM
Sunday, August 12
paparazzi =.=
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Anita & Giselle 's 'frame'
and the nonchalent.
Mr Skinnypants Mat! HA!
my new extended family LOL.
KING & I (yumiko's chalet)
Having the annual 'flu package'. Tonnes of mucus to be unleasheddddd.
`Arrggggggghhh.!
11:40 AM
Thursday, August 9
hpy hjrs.
Johnne's ahem passionate burst?
Pattern maaaah!
spastic but cute!
dont kill me, this is the ULTIMATE relaxation.
peiying huizhi kenneth
hugss!
Tomatoes!
crazy women.
Ate at Vila'ge, Teriyaki chicken skrewed cream pasta and choco-mint ice cream. Bad lighting but nice spacious bathrooms. It was also my consecutive 3rd day at the Heeren. zzz.
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Went to starbucks afterwhich, before some went for clubbing and others head home.
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Crazy love, hope u like my stuff and no u are not FAT, U ARE GORGEOUS AND U WILL KNOCK THOSE AH MOHS DOWN. U WILL TURN THEM ON!
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Thanks for the lovely letter, and ur typical 'girlish pink' decor of it. Remember to read the album book when u get on to your flight, if u read it now, i will kill u. But there would be a diff.kind of impacts.Absoutely no sneak previews ah.
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See ya on sat. i love u,u disturbing girl. although u squirt lime all over my legs and attempt to sabo me.
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ANYTHING RING ME UPPP. and i will convey ur msg to him.
hpy hjr!
11:50 PM
Wednesday, August 8
Okay, let me make a clear stand.
First of all, the stupid tagging thing, thanks for the overwhelming responses. Up to 300 tags! Weeeeeeeeeee. But anyhow the childish war pls stop it.
Im sure u guys are very 'into' insulting me, be it be im a whore or some monkey. But pls do not insult my friends. Pls bear it in mind that u foolish ppl started all this nonsense, they cant take these down.
Similar to ur plights, when my friend insult debbie, u guys cant take it. So yaaaaaa.
Please people, get a life, there are so many ways to help her, and this is not one of them.Instead u are making things harder.But what the heck, im repeating my words yet again.
anyhow, i really appreciate that my friends has spoken up for me. but i dont wan to pull anyone down, it's a simple 3 person matter. And on a final note, i do not snatch people bf, it's laughable to think of me doing all this. Plus, i'll probably die laughing at this entry few months from now, i sounds incredibly childish n disbelieving lah.
ps: On a random note: I cut my hair today, they claimed it's short but u know my love for short hair, i feel it's not short enough! LOL. i think i wont be keeping long hair for a long time, the tempatation to cut is too big for me to resist.
7:46 PM
Monday, August 6
Lianya:
Time really flies, that dreaded day is coming. I really hope after u settle down there, we would still be in contact. hope it wont come as a culture shock for u, and just ease in.
Luckily,u are pretty sociable and easy-going so u can fit in. Dont get too homesick,and learn to grow up even if it's a different environment. i love u my forever hpy hjr, by ur side always even though we are miles away.
When u come back,i will try not to go gaga over ur Ah moh bf,LOL!
5:31 PM
Sunday, August 5
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Everything seems to be going well now, at least this relationship is not revolved around sugar-coated words and empty promises. Our honesty and reassurances towards each other has been of utmost, respect comes in two ways.
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People may speak of love as something that is purely based on the element of romance. But what makes it attainable and to keep it going is not merely the sparks (God knows how long sparks can long?) but the ability to keep us all going on.
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Which in my opinion,means compromising and having a certain level of intimacy. In the long run,maybe a certain passion for ur other half may have fizzle a notch, or u find urself into more sticky situations whereby arguements seems to be the only communciation lately.
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And in haste,u try to hush the whole problem out, thinking the best way to tackle the problem is not to mention the problem again.
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But ultimately problems seek to be resolved and unwanted conflicts occur. So the best solution is not to leave things hanging mid-air but to solve it and get it done and over with.
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Gotta catch some beauty zzz....................
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momentarily,time stops.
for just u and me.
entwined with a layer of sweetness.
1:52 PM
Saturday, August 4
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Ecstatic mugger.
tilt ur head.
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i doodled a bird/dragon/monster?
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The Tps project and MANDY'S FEMININE WHITE HAND!
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Went to study with Hq ard amk area. I was busily doodling and laughing at our stupidity lah.
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There was this really gorgeous piece of 'art' in front of us at Mos burger, and she deliberately swop to the left so the guy could see i was obviously gawking at him! Saboteur!!!!!!!!!!
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so paiseh lah, and we drew a portrait of each other. She looked like some red-indian auntie due to her laugh lines and i feel i look like Mr Potatoe or some weird cartoon freak.
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zzzzzzzzzzzzz. okay update later, will be meeting my boy & other warriors to catch baybeats. Hope to get 'high' and see someone do some serious headbanging or crowd-diving hehe.
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okays,off to a nap or else my eye bags will worsen.ugh.
BYE LOVES!
12:15 PM
Friday, August 3
PAYM LEADERSHIP
The next coolest thing we are going through is the Standard Chartered Marathon.
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It would be so great lah, besides getting the number tag and shirt, it would be just a WEEEEEEEEEE~ experience for us all.
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Although i foreseen aches here and there for future training, i bet everyone is geared up.
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The actual day is on December!
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random note: it seems to be a peverse trend to beat up bus drivers lately.
4:31 PM
Thursday, August 2
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Spot the uncanny resemblance!
WAHAHA!
6:46 PM
will i wake up to a beautiful morning with u by my side again?
my grilled creamed chicken.(TOO generous portion of vegs though)
His red snapper( with the self-proclaimed kacang puteh peas?)
i seemed to be squeezing his testicles or something.
Steven/ Eric's
Need i say more?
Love the fusion of colors.
HOHO!
Looks like a cross bwt a showroom or tv scene.
the 3 modern concubines.
ur new spokesperson!
some band.
watching the scurrying ants move food -.-
Ghost child
not incestous,just cheeky.
paparazzi =.=.jpg)
Anita & Giselle 's 'frame'
Mr Skinnypants Mat! HA!
KING & I (yumiko's chalet)
hpy hjrs.
peiying huizhi kenneth
hugss!
Tomatoes!
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Ecstatic mugger.
tilt ur head.
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ZHIWEN!
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