Can you catch my breath

Saturday, June 30

Friendship

sometimes we just need to make an effort.
an effort to keep in contact,a mere call or even a short sms.
but it seems to be of no avail when u know the person is already in closure.

seemingly an act of ''i assume u dont care about me no longer when u have new friends and other things to occupy your time''

i honestly am at a loss,when everything is just pointing to the dead end direction.u may say its all too late to salvage everything. and what we have now is only memories?

7:58 PM

Friday, June 29

YESTERDAY~

went to take testimonial and the o-lvl cert fro Bowen. God,i was like so suay.my slipper broke and i rushed home like a siaocharbo to change.i was practically runnning to the bus stop because i was late to meet Lianya,this guy called me and ask where i was going.I thought he was my cousin so i answered all his qns,it turned out to be Derek lah!

When i reached school,already very hot,sweating and pekche.the bloody security guard refused to let me in. WHY?

because i was wearing sleveless! Like PLEASE LAH! i gt shave my armpit one,i wont scare off my lovely bowenians. Then the stupid woman kept insisting ''Nono,u will get me fired.'' -_____-

Mrs Danapal came by to see what the bloody commontion was abt,and instantly i thought i was a the motherfucker of all unluckiness becos she was guaranteed to give me some lecture. But instead she scrunched up the powdery red(black) of hers and say 'Go in.

Went to oosps opps later. during the bus trip there,this indian guy was sleeping and he was drooling! it was one long stretch of saliva down to his shirt! me and yuwen were both laughing and cringing.

the rest im lazy to type out but just hope that hq and dave would work things out.Maybe the next trip to the nude restaurant would be more enoyable,dont let the ambience go to waste bah.

1:42 PM

Thursday, June 28

a strong love to ruin photos.

me,F1 and the ice ice baby!

detect a very horny,i mean hungry mandy behind.

all the fringed head.

11:11 AM

Tuesday, June 26

GREAT DAY TODAY.

went to abt 4 places today within Kranji. As usual,nature isnt something worth saying much abt. At least farms,as stinky and unappealing it is,has some life to it.May it be the horny threesome frogs or 18 yr old bonsai plants worth $300+ or the very food deprived kois.

as usual,i feel i was temporaily being transported to some ulu parts of Msia.

Mandy was exceptionally perky and hyper today,(Hey bitch,we videoed down how u skip and bounce ard,U KNOW?) But Ash was kinda emotional,we conclude male pms.haha.

and after i made amendments,i feel relieved and free from regret.
weeeeeee~~~~~~~~ yipeeee~~~~~woooooooooo~

i just have to say i have my own reasons for being such a mysterious bitch.
Maybe i am just asking for trouble now when i made my decision to stay on,all i need now is time,support and understanding.everything will be revealed in time.

im picturing the worst case scenerio,i dont have high hopes,as bitter as it sounds,
but all i know is at least i wont lose someone i really like.i cant stop ppl from forming opinions of me,but i would try to defend us.

aiyah.fuck la. some things are so hard to explain.

9:27 PM

it took me one whole night to realise how i acted in such a impulsive yet rational way.wth was i thinking? it's as though i threw away my pursuit of happiness.this time,i really screw up my own chances big-time.

Makin' amends later.i hope he will forgive my harshness.even if it's a BIG FAT UGLY NO,at least i tried bah.

i wont let go and regret once again.

11:51 AM

Monday, June 25

a well-spent day today.

i love how natural the kids are with their multiple expressions and actions. Why dont i possess a cute lil bro?!?!

but most importantly,the particular guy that treated the kids with unexpected gentleness and patience.totally tug my heartstrings!

that was one endearing sight~

11:36 PM

Sunday, June 24

MY FACE,MY NARCISISM.

timon.

fugly and pregnant.

i look like my mum.

when xXDead WaWaxX meets the Camel.

9:33 PM

i have a new-found revolution growing on my face: BLEMISHES!!!
more on my left cheek but still i am deeply traumatized now.

AAAAARGH. the mirror never fails to remind me abt it and oh! how much i look like my mother lately =p

went to yishun for nasi bryani with the yellow man.
went to lucky plaza to eat the indon-malay cusine. yummicious lah!but too small portions though.went to marina square to take Huiqun's ndp preview tickets!

no wonder i shitted just now.i dont like shitting in public toilets,i feel so pressurised for time and the muffling of ahem* noises.

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as long i have a clear conscience,i should not be afraid of anything.
sometimes i think everything happens too fast.actually i dont ask for anything in return,so dont feel pressurised to.i am already like fuckin' appreciative of what are u doing now.

some things should remain the same.and we have no obligations.it's the best for all of us.ya,u know who u are lah.

12:08 AM

Friday, June 22

http://huiqun.livejournal.com/
http://huiqun.livejournal.com/
http://huiqun.livejournal.com/

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAA!
such a motherfucker but funny gal.

11:35 PM

Liar liar,vagina on fire.

9:57 PM

i feel happy and stressed at the same time.isnt that absurd?
reciprocated.i feel really lucky,its like some unexpected windfall.

stressed,to be judged upon.and the other obstacle is my own course.

=) =(

2:02 AM

Thursday, June 21

MASS UPDATE!!!!!!

with the new AMK hub,we actually forgot abt juilbee =(

dont ask.really.

Voldemort. and the evil white bitch.

10:54 PM

To sum up these few days?

-Botanic Gardens
-Bukit Timah Nature Reserve
-Farmart

Felt like going to a total different world,the motherfucker nature.Needless to say,nature is not my kinda thing.im not some tree hugger and flora person.

Went on a mosquitoe shopping spree.
Pray that i dont get dengue,it isnt worth my health all for one fucky project.
ugh!!!!!

Swan lake (4 pathetic statue swans and 2 live swans waddling a size of a football field.)

Bukit Timah (Only for the sicko nature lovers who adore steep slopes/dry leaves/and tranquilty of insects mating.)

Farmart ( i only rememebr the guilty shopkeeper saying they are nt ready,and i saw they stuff like 5 birds in those tiny fish tanks. wth!)

will be bed-ridden tml at home.
LOL.

10:24 PM

forgot to post the arab street pictures.
here u go anyhow~

conceptual shophouses.

armpit poser.

orange beetle.

humping.

Ash and Mandy.

eavesdropping?

osama & marilynn?!

feeling like this lately!

happy nigger~

10:02 PM

Wednesday, June 20

the path that i carved for myself seems uncannily unsure now.
Cliche as it sounds,i'll let nature take its course.

more bites tml.
OUCH.

11:43 PM

Monday, June 18

Life's a bitch.i feel like that particular bitch now.
Bravery and impulsiveness are two different things.
just like love and infatuation.

9:44 PM

i could only summarise yesterday as a booze and snooze fest.
If only some people could keep their itchy hands to themselves,things would be fine.

and thank you for being protective of us all although u werent sober.really appreciative.

And a big thank you to Angie for opening the chalet and all

tps project tml.i wanna pang sai.

9:01 PM

Sunday, June 17

a short update on Angie's chalet.

spotted:raymond,yumiko,ash,yuvin,bam,ashok,zhiwen,jay,shawal,steven,
ernie,jessica,aizhen,ningxin,giselle,mandy,rachel and angie's friends.

quite a dramatic one,i must say. Spend most of the time biking outside.12 people on double bikes.And i guess my phobia for bikes has gone.Shawal is a good experienced rider,Rachel is Tokyo Drift whereas Zhiwen is a chatline,haha.

all i know my arse hurts like fuck during the aftermath,and i was roaring in pain.plus i was having my period.

half of the group got drenched in the rain and witnessed an unpleasant gangfight at Macs.Hope everyone dont get sick.

quite a 'dirty' place there,abt half of the gang sighted.suay,i was kinda shocked and went quiet for awhile and zhiwen made us all go back chalet to clean our feet.'pa dang' lah,but better to believe.

okay,gotta go prepared for the bbq later.
cya!

4:51 PM

Saturday, June 16

who wanna watch it with meee?

1:43 AM

Remainder of the museum trip.
still got arab street de -.- which fucker said that there's no pics here?

pop art.

typicial gis.

he's really tired.

maroons.

the haunted.

zhiwen and raymond!

some patrons are ... ...

swaying chalendiers.

12:14 AM

Friday, June 15

i thought that school was 8.15 today!when jay called me to meet for breakfast,i realised that school was at 10!!!!!!

AND I WAS IN THE MRT!so i went home -.-
And i thought i was pretty stupid already,when ash like me,mistook the time and came early too.But he was at Macs.

School was pathetic today.Heavy downpour,everyone was late.1/4 of isf was at bus 410,with Olinda(yes,she's late too!)Class started at 10.30 and ended at 11.30.Feel like laughing and crying.Im feeling angry,worried and ____ any adjectives u want to put in lah.

chiong the 'thing' at student hub.i realise that we have a perverse inner self of being perfectionists?

Tml is ANGIE'S CHALET!
*War crys!

11:40 PM

Wednesday, June 13

NATIONAL MUSEUM EXCURSION PICTURES!

There are still lots more to go,shall upload the remainder tml.
Credits to Zhiwen.feel free to grab dem.

anguish.

FIRE FIRE!

Q,rafidah,maisarah,erfa & wendy!

infra-red MADNESS?!

Zoome out.

Funny faces lah!

is & Q!

yawn to the dead and point.

Brokeback-ing?

happily eaten?

the spastic and the nonchalent.

Back of the bus.

nipple mates.

awww.

PEEING? no lah,just watering the plants with his 'waterhose'

jay & steven

Shawal,aizhen,ningxin,zhiwen

Potato head!

rachel,jessica,razila and yuvin!

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Peanuts.

8:44 PM

Tuesday, June 12

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

this really works for me and it takes less than 30 secs to get yourself analysized.
do try it.

11:24 PM

silence is golden,apply that today,tomorrow and the rest of your fuckin' lives.

i was feeling real fucked-up today after school.When things do not go my way,i am like real ....

Sometimes i think i just try too hard.

i explode in a different way,my dears.i accumulate the anger and let it out when the time comes.Underneath that crazy,laughly,crappy person,i also have bad feelings.

tolerant is both my trait and flaw.

9:06 PM

Monday, June 11

im getting married in October.
He went down on one knee today and i was so stunned.

yes,we may be young.And people have doubts about how long we may last.
But i dont give a damm anymore,i love you!

misleading.

9:54 PM

Sunday, June 10

i scolded zhiwen fuck u lah,cheebye and he captured this UNGLAM moment.

so i took swt revenge(i am naturally retarded.)

Went to study TPS with Giselle,Zhiwen,Jay,Shawal,Von and Ash.
Went Sim Lim Square to get sd card and thumbdrive.

Like wth,i think 90% of the people there were armed with penises.Plus all the what ram,com,blah tech com geek stuff.And all way through,Giselle and I were unnaturally quiet LOL!

We were a bunch of devils in the woodlands library.Sat at the midget stools for children to study tps.We got chided by the librarian.Shifted to the carpeted floor and laughed loudly,she kept coming over to scold us and threatened to chase us out.

When we were leaving,she was seated at the desk and once again,she reprimanded us.wth.Jay shouted 'BYE!' and she actually got outta her seat and we all ran for our dear lives! Ppl ard thought we stole books or something dumb lah! HAHA.

oh ya,the sports job rang me up just now.i doubt i dare throw my face there.initially accepted the job,but when he said it was $4.5/hr,i was like errrrrr...okaaay.

but 10 mins later,i called back and wth i wasnt thinking.

me:Errrrrrr,i know this sounds very bad.but the pay is low,i dont want the job already.sorry

Guy:okay,thank you(CUPS THE PHONE!)

and i was feeling incredibly guilty and told my mum abt it.Her eyes were glued to the computer screen,she was playing game.''No lah,the pay so low mah.u got a right to choose'' wasnt really listening to me,i feel like the mother this time.

if only feelings could seep away easily this time.
it's not right and never could be.

9:08 PM

failure to really study properly at mos.went to town instead.
i went job hunting at amk hub. one was at Sports AE lifestyle which i suddenly realised it was the conjuction of Sportslink,just that it majored in mostly adidas stuff.

I think the guy interviewee thought that i had a dispute with my ex-supervisor because he knows him i think!but heng he voiced out his assumptions so i wasnt misunderstood.And i think he will call CM as for my work referal,i think my prob is i can be a ditz at times but overall,i think i can interact with customers well.okay,i sound too confident.but hope to get the job since i have the experience.

Another was CHECK,the shop sellling bags and shoes.A smaller shop but they said it had more flexible time.Im going to take the first job which calls me.(hope they call lah) and the funny thing is i didnt ask abt the pay at all.

No more frequent going outs after school.shld be wrking ard 3 days a wk if i get the job.

and my dear ah kun really very 'steady',to priortise studies and relationships.i salute u.okay,sounds disgusting,but first time i think u are cool and clear-headed.
haha.

12:17 AM

Saturday, June 9

one down.

you to conquer.

5:01 AM