Friday, January 19
well.kinda dissapointed with myself today.i always thought i was brave and thick-skinned but apparently i lacked these.i just feel strange and awkward.to think i hoped to see him daily but im not prepared to see him unexpectantly.i really think im just making things complicated for myself.i have to make myself sober.as some things are not worth me worrying or hanging on to.im really stupid.really really stupid.and im really angsty now.i think im really fucking emo in a wrg way.hais.fuck la.
11:50 PM