will update on my birthday celebrations when i get the pictures~!
11:05 PM
Monday, May 28
it's amazing how such a short commercial can make such a heart throb like takuya kimura look like a sissy idiot.
10:18 PM
Sunday, May 27
mandy ask me what is my birthday wishlist? i told her i want a smooth-sailing life!LOL
okay,the material things goes
i want a printed heart top from Forever 21. i want a cool water bottle. i want a new pair of flip-flops. or u could always buy me a tub of wax/clay/matte.
LOL. i would like to sun tan at Sentosa though.
12:46 AM
WHAT THE FUCK. the perverse adrenaline will fade away eventually. i hope.
12:05 AM
Friday, May 25
When Rosalyn was doing some gig outside Heeren.
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I realised something NOT significant but everyday,i would definitely say something.
besides the usual vuglars.But ''Where is (insert any name)?''
Like today,i was like where is Ash ah?? Aizhen leh?Giselle?Mandy?
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And just when i laughed endlessly at Anita calling Shawal as Ashok, today Ash actually called me Yuvin and pondered for 5 seconds for my name.i was like wthhhhhhhh!?!?
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Today marked the day in my school history for being such a kiasu being.All for a frigging 5 points.Lesson started at 10 today but we reached school at 8 to hand in our script.We had to beat Mr Liew in his time,or there would be a deduction of marks.
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i went crazy at the student hub today. Threw jay's condom around then we realised there was a CCTV and i tore the freaking condom! Then later during the afternoon,we kept laughing over Mr Liew crooked stuff.Mandy & jay's laughs are contagious lah!
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And Angie put powder on my face when my mouth was wide open,laughing and i tasted e powder!!!!!!!!!
Razila kena alot,their forfeit in playing carom.
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Afterwhich,we did roleplay's props.Thanks to mandy for helping,De Bu La La loves Muthu!Went to catch Ash,Tiny and Raymond's soccer trial. Hope they can make it to the team yeah?
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And got this really swell eye candy. woohoooo~ but i doubt it be easy to see this particular candy in school.he seems to be the low-profile type.
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tml gg jay's house do roleplay,i almost type cosplay LOL.
MUST FINISH ALL THE PROPS ALL THE STUFF.
MUST MUST MUST!
9:40 PM
Thursday, May 24
i dunno whether it's the stress or we have started to see each other's flaws but there seems to be a arising tension.
it's a fact that our class has several cliques but overall we get along okok. for now,i hope and pray that everything would be at least plain-sailing.
yes,i do not really like some people in class. and i believe some ppl may have that mutual feeling towards me.
i no longer can say ''aiyah,just supress the bad feelings'',because even i myself cant abide to it. i guess my face is like a whiteboard whereby u can see my feelings.
somehow i feel me and the Orangeys have drifted apart. it's inevitable since most of them are in Rp,busy with their own stuff but im just insecure.
and Lianya who is now busily working,i dont even wanna think about the time she goes to uk and be really far away from us =(
And i just warned the girls just now,im horrible when i have my period. the bloody mood-swings,sometimes i rather have the cramps or whatsoever.
bloody fuck the mood.
7:15 PM
i dunno how to phrase all this but im not picking a fight. i just wanna express what i feel. this for you,Mrs Jojo.
i think u are aware that i wasnt happy with you on the roleplay thingie. Because u seem to not take this seriously.But yes,i know u have planned programmes at saturdays and im glad u pushed away the plans to do the work.
but everyone has their stuff too,i too wanna go out with my friends.And unluckily our roleplay is on Monday so we all gotten make sacrifices.
i dun wan this roleplay stuff to affect us.And if u are not happy with me,u can tell me.okay,this sounds fierce,but pls imagine it in a more peace tone.
PEACE. and i guess i wanna retain the peace but express what i feel. it feels better this way=)
4:12 PM
Wednesday, May 23
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHOK KUMAR!
HE HAS BUDDHA PALM!
(photo credits to angie!)
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We bought this green shirt at BHG for shiok.hope he likes it.
ashok cracks me up without trying to,this guy is a natural.
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today i was freaked out by Mr Liew,3/4 of us went to the canteen to eat instead of going to his lesson on time.When we sauntered into the class,he was like ALL SMILES.That typical smile he always gives. the classic leering and sinister smile,i would say.
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God knows wth is he thinking.
Im not gonna slp naps anymore.get a headache instead. -.-
and tml will be my virgin attempt.
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at bathing in school!yes,bathing with mandy,any takers?
LOL,sounds so wrong.
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and lastly,Zhiwen,if u are reading this,u are like Luna Lovegood,embarrasingly honest at times.ha.
9:38 PM
Tuesday, May 22
i feel groggy after my nap.
i wasnt happy and proud of myself at break today. Did not feel right for giving someone this treatment.yes,i am a goody two shoes.
actually there are alot of things which i really like to blog out,yes,all my fuckin displeasures but i guess im a humji kia who wants to retain peace for the moment.
I find it hard to express out these feelings as i would end up being Ms Untactful. I seem to be losing interest in lessons and i eventually dozed off. i dont even feel like going for school on friday,one bloody hour for ofa? do what,wait for Mrs Lee outside the room,surf friendster,type a few stuff and ??
I really feel like giving up on myself sometimes. Because i am not exactly Ms Sunshine,but i was like hey alot of people are going through the same stuff as me right now,so i shouldnt indulge in this pool of self-pity.
AAAARGH,bloody hell. hate this brooding mode.
8:13 PM
TAGGIES~
Johnne: actually i love pork more.
Mandy: wth............................. heng,it's a girl.
Jessica: deep fried tgt.
Sil: yes,deep fried is using hot oil.
Wendy: LOL,u already said here. okay,i'll spread.
YUWEN: Sorry,parallex error. YA,SOMEONE WAS SLEEPING~
Zarifah: yes,wth. pls forget what had happened. miss u too.
Huiqun: the most beautiful birthday girl. BAD ALICE!
SCooby: here u go!
8:40 AM
Monday, May 21
THE BIRTHDAY GAL!
When she was told puberty stopped at 18.
SMILE FIONA!
Crazy posers.
i told u she dislike Fruit Cake haha!
Our gifts to her!
Greedy Zairi
practising our 'crane' moves!
group pics,i love!
huddled.
DONT TRY THIS AT HOME,BUT U MAY ATTEMPT IN A CHALET THOUGH.
Man-made tolem pole!
Spot jiarui in the cupboard.HAHA!
7:55 PM
Sunday, May 20
okays updates updates.VERY LONG ENTRY,PICTURES NEXT TIME.
Huiqun's birthday wasnt really a festive success but at the very least she 'xin ling'. was supposed to dine at Swensens but there was a change of plans.Blindfolded her and went straight to the class chalet.
Attracted many stares on the bus,it's not any day u see a toussed hairsiao char bo wearing a yellow dress and blindfolded on a bus attempting to kiss me.
HAHAHA!
ahhhh.we promise not to blindfold u and make your mascara run next year =p i love u tanhuikhoon despite ur constant bursts of eccentricity.But we are always in the same wavelength and although at times u disgust me,i love u nevertheless.
Class chalet. Yuwen,Huiqun,Indren,Hanafi,Hazera,Zarifah,Liting,Weiting,Jac,Joycelyn Leon,Faizal,Najib,Fikri,Shafiq,Jiarui,Jianren,Aaron,Jeremy,Sulaiman,Zairi.
we were remicising about the good old' days and later the guys started their long history on their fights with whom and when.Which was pretty funny as some fights were childish.And troubles that our class cooked up for the teachers and laughing at our pranks.
From being the notorious class with lots of latecomings,noise pollutions and very short attention spans.Especially in 3a2,when the class created the most havoc for Mr Rahmat Ali and teased him endlessly.
We recalled Zairi snatching his shoes away,mimicking his effeminate actions and his drawling manner.''Debbbbb -braaaaaaa''.wth.
His sneezes were classic,and how he always give a disapproving eye to us,even when we greeted him enthusiatically(perhaps a bit too over) by grabbing his arms and hollering out his name.
I guess the most vivid one was Mr Soo punishing us in the hot field and kneeling down to plead for us to stop playing around.Mrs Iszal being the poised beauty,the only teacher who knew how to control our class,and the one who seen through our ahem true colours.
We chatted and crapped and drank quite abit.And then i got drunk,i started blabbering nonsense.I got high,so did the rest.Yuwen aka Miss Tomato for the night was the first one down.
Joycelyn broke down and puked,and Indren (so man!) carried her.And the stupidest was me and Huiqun,we were crying like mad over Lianya.She's leaving for UK in august for studies.YES,FUCK.I LOVE U AND MISS U ALOT,JUST THAT I NEVER SAY OUT. =(
I just remember Hanafi consoling me while i wept like depressed idiot,he kept patting my back then i drifted to sleep.And he was very sweet to cover the blanket over me,luckily i didnt threw up on him.When i woke up,i was told that i hugged Zairi to sleep!OMG.And Indren said as though i fuck him -.-
checked out at 10am.parted ways. i know im gonna miss u guys real bad. our prime times in secondary school.
7:15 PM
Thursday, May 17
actually i was very stressed during BZF today. Had to re-do the entire bloody roleplay script,hq's birthday, and my very poor time management.And i guess im e type who will NOT express my stress-ness until cant tahan because i dont want fake sympathy or what lah.
And about the fucking cheebye teachers who always come late,i guess two can play the game.
this sounds childish but really wth,WE STILL GIVE A DAMM ABOUT OUR FUTURE LAH. dont ask me go and complain to the ite,when i noe how biased the system can be.
The prop today was shrek's ears hairband,which macs was selling for charity for $2. not wearing it tml though,makes my hair not-spikey.
ran to woodlands,had pastamania. OMG,smelly tofu,at first i assumed i had a nose block,i took a bite and find it okay. Smell like rubbish bin then Shawal ''flashed'' his breath and i nearly fainted.OMG,and needless to say Zhiwen was the King for eating 3 smelly tofus.Ash practically flee from the smell.HAHA.
AND PIMPLES ON THE BRIDGE OF MY NOSE! omg,as if pikachu isnt enough. isf sure can give alot of nicks, now yuvin call me ''fatty'' -.- cos i have a fat place in prior to my skinny body.wth. can call me the usual 'woman'?
tml is the class chalet.i hope i wont get diarrohoea after the whole thing. but looking forwards to 5a2 and MOPLEXS!
woot!
ps:and something totally random,got a shock when i went to Lianya's blog. the phantom of the opera song! so loud,LOL
10:46 PM
Wednesday, May 16
DONT EVER EVER GO TO
#03-46 (tailor)
the ulu building just next to Bugis Street.
unless u are a guy.
But if u happen to go there,please deep fried the male tailor's balls for me.
thank you.
6:06 PM
Monday, May 14
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After a period of six months,i can finally talk to u without tearing my hair off.
thank god and all the best to u in National Slavery!
10:20 PM
THE GALS
ashok really looks like a father.
that fierce glaring manager
i wanna go on board!
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some of the pics from vivo that time.
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Today we really were eager students yearning to learn DESPERATELY!
Mrs Lee kept harping on BGR topics,boy she can go on and on.And we were like ''omg,when will she start teaching?!''
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Luckily she just radiates motherly love from every angle,so i guess our class not pekche =)
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Same for TPS,we bloody miss out on ALL the lessons because of the talks and Mrs Yeo being absent.And Zhiwen got all panicky and yelled for teacher to START teaching.And i guess looks really can be decieving because i thought he was the type whom didnt give a flying fuck.
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But it turned out otherwise.
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Oh ya,the teachers were all late as usual.Mr Liew was just behind us but we still went to the co-op shop to buy stuff.Really,this is getting absurd,the teachers seems to have no pride in their work.
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Went to eat swensens with Ash,Jay,Mandy,Von and Shawal.
Ash came up with the 'What if' questionaire which was really -.- because he said WHAT IF i and THAT ''Caress whisper'' (aka the Tracker) gt together,which really is sickening.The mere thought of it makes me wanna *^$&%$.
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Shall be checking out the class jerseys tml.
But still gotta take our altered stuff from the fucked up tailor.I have been toying this thought,should i kick his groin before i leave? okay,this sounds totally insane,but i dun care whether he is an old uncle or not,he deserves it. any guys willing to accompany me?
8:16 PM
Replies to tags
wendy:ahhhh,6 t0 8 dollars.
pikachu:fuck off.
scooby:DUH~
anita: ??b itch? why uguys talk no link?
Zhiwen: im debra only sometimes i am debbie.
jay:it's better already.
huiqun: kenneth is always mine to keep and use.
anita: u love to start scandals!
zhiwen: i thought ashok is giselle and giselle is mrs lee?
yuwen: she loves u occassionally =p
8:33 AM
Sunday, May 13
my mum meddling with the phone
` WARNING: EMBRACE YOURSELF FOR A EXTREMELY WORDY POST.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
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I guess being in a single parent family makes me more dependent on my mother.I know i haven't being a good kid lately,especially around december.
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The time i sneaked out with santos,and got kicked outta of the house.I returned after a few days,with the mindset that my mother hated me and we didnt talk for 2 months
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Til the day i recieved the big O' results,i thought i could go to poly and gain my mother's forgiveness.I recalled calling her happily that i could so,i remembered her elatedness and i thought the barrier between us could finally be broken.
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But everything backfired,i was a coward and the moment i reached home,i just threw the results slip on the bed and grabbed a jacket before i rushed to work.Fearing what lies ahead of me,and facing my mother's wrath.
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She was not angry and comforted me by saying 'Better than nothing.' That came as a solace for me and we discussed about my future.The resentment eventually faded away.
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The only time i saw her really flared up,was when my bastard of a father mortaged our house and the bank people tried to confiscate our possessions.That was really frightening,and she threatened to go the police and the matter kinda blow up.But the matter was resolved already=)
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one thing i love abt her is that she always has a readily smile and a wicked sense of humour.People may think she is the shrewd auntie,ready to critcise and devour you.At times,she can be straight-forward to the extent of ''He is ugly and boring,i think u and him will break up soon.'' or fawning over the handsome boyfriend -.-
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And of course the nagging factor which every mother comes equppied with.my untidy room with my clothes strewed all over,my shoes,my blahblahblah.i guess that's mothers for you.
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One thing in common though is unconditional love for all of us,no matter how horrible we are.More than often,we dont really appreciate the little things that they have done for us.sometimes even assuming that they ought to.
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She was the one to build me up and break me down.And mould me into debra today!
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HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!
thank you,mummy!i love you.
11:39 AM
Saturday, May 12
i just feel very disgruntled right now. okay,make that hurt and angry.
the trauma has always lived in me. i really hate these kinda guys. u are all fucking bastards.be it be the boyfriend, a mere accquaintance or even a complete stranger.
maybe my words or gestures or even dressings are suggestive i do not know,but i will never invite trouble to myself. ` it's really hard to be expressive and saving my god damm dignity at the same time.i shld learn how to protect myself in the future.im god darn fucking suay and stupid. im not strong after all.
11:44 PM
Friday, May 11
Good and bad news.actually,i dont really know what is classifield as good news,i think is merely normal lah.
Good news is that no matter how fuckin' slack and late the teachers are,im DEFINITELY here to stay in ISF.Besides interacting with dem in class,i have been hanging out with dem after school on a almost daily basis.i love u guys,no matter how noisy WE are.
it's really hard to find such a happening and spontaeous class like mine. *swells with pride.
Bad news is that i have this pain on the side of my stomach for a few days.not ur usual stomachache nor pre-period abodmen pains.i told mandy and she said it MAY BE appendix,i really hope it's not and wont kena operation.But i think im quite a suay person and the chances are high.It's fucking hurts now =(
went to ken seet's photography exhibition at vivo just now. held at Page one,a bookstore. ALL of the pictures in monochrome and mostly were of people in poverty just living their way of life.
And we became artsy fartsy,took raymond's olympus camera and attempted artistic shots.
Took this shot from the window of ''Go India'' restaurant whereby this chef was making croissants? i was telling Giselle i had never seen something that resemble both a rose and poop so much.LOL.
the funniest part was supposedly the manager glaring at us from inside through a little hole.And Shawal zoomed in on his bull dog face.Haha.
went eat at the harborfront kopitiam.Angie ghost stories,i dunno why but got this feeling that she is going to be a teacher in the future.LOL.
okay,gg off soon. stomach hurts,fuck,shit. i think i shld cut down on my vulgarities.
great event going on tml.that is if the 'bitch' does not back out on his plan.
all the best!
10:36 PM
BACK TAG!
Zhiwen: we meet in the middle of amk and woodlands.pls continue bringing ur dollie bag!
Mandy: woot!IM EVIL DEBRA REMEMBER?
Johnne: i prefer my Ang mo kio Ambulance hehe. and who is geodude?which pokemon?
Jessica: what's ur link!??
Scooby: DUH! can write something elseee besides izzit???
Anita: see see no need tag everytime!
alex: alrights! u too.
YUWEN: that was my past.butchy butcher debra berk!
Wendy: ahhh,orange and yellow? miss sch?
8:36 AM
Wednesday, May 9
green shit=)
but now?
10:02 PM
was browsing through my old folder.
thought this was awfully sweet.
drawn by Zaidi =)
9:27 PM
Tuesday, May 8
RANDOM PICS!
J8's toilet!
Finger there cannot make it lah.
and no it's NOT smeared shit.
ash and pikachu.
10:55 PM
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Life has been revolving around sweating like a pig, waiting like a fool and laughing like no one's business.
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7:41 PM
Monday, May 7
SPORTS AND WELLNESS!
3 people i laugh out loud at.
LOOK AT DEM! Faisal & Ernie slackers,with crossed legs.
and Bob(Khairy),is he marking attendance?
8:42 PM
the readily smiles does not mean im okay. i feel very insecure,i wont breakdown like some emo elmo lah. but i really think school is not working out for me.
yes,i am coping.*rolls eyes. which idiot cant cope?seriously,everyday is practically a breeze. study? it's studying at its minumium. it's like unchallenging and bland. im not saying i am Little Ms Smart,but really look! it's being one month,what did we really accomplish?
ya,i know it's ite.ITE! so what,we come here to study too. the lessons are very ........... ...... ...
i think Mr liew attitude is damm fucked-up.I really dont want to harbor evil thoughts but i really wish he can die choking on a fishball so another teacher can replace him.Pek che and i sat down at the door,fuckin' hot,making me even more pekche.Then zhiwen all said i emo,and took pics of me.funnily,i was not pissed.maybe because he's a nice idiot.
Aaaaargh. but overall,still feel fucked up lah. is it just me being a worry wart and too paranoid or what?!
7:31 PM
Sunday, May 6
cancer at last stage.
thats ME! the siaocharbo x)
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met Von and Shawal at coffeshop aka (339 restaurant!) to chat.they just finished their ndp thingie.i see some of Kenneth in Shawal,the words that they say and stuff.
im not looking forward to school tml.i feel like flying kite in Punggol seriously.
haha,sounds very childish but i really feel like doing so.
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i miss secondary school times and my friends.I feel most at ease with them.
i can go crazy but only in moderation in ISF,im sure some of u have witnessed that or duringthe spiderman outing at night.but i can unleash my full power when with my buds.
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class chalet 19th may!
like FINALLY!woot! cant wait to see everyone!
pls come because i doubt there would be another gathering like this over the years to come.okay i sound pathetic.
COME COME!
10:35 PM
i look like a pubescent mickey.
perversely looking at her food.
YUMMICIOUS!
SWELL.
need a nose job.
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watched 200 pounds of beauty with Lianya!
Nice. i teared at the end.If i was really supreme fat,i'll be bawling on the floor,believe me.it was that impactful for me that is.
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ate at Coffee Club.our seats were opposite the lifts ,made alot of strange and loud noises.but no one seems to be paying us any attention.So we were crapping that we were actually deadbecause we jay walked and kena knocked down by cars -.-
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met huiqun and dave.at the youth park,weird.
i kept micmicking his accent,hope he doesnt take it to heart.
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met shawal for supper.
talked till abt 1.30.
blacked out when i reached home.
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*fragments of memories embedded
stories to be weaved and hearsays to be banished
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11:13 AM
Saturday, May 5
TAGLOREEEEEEEEEEEEE!
norma* dancing's cool!
alex* shawal looks great to me!!! and i always look pale and i am always SICK IN E HEAD.
yuwen* he's so cute! his mannerism,e way he talks blaaah,i think he drop pisai oso cute lah!
anita* i saw already =0
Register no.2* pangsen me=( aww,so swt!i look behind and hope Ernie is YOU!haha.
raymond* i like HARRY better. haha,spidey evolved!
Scooby* just click on the pictures u want!
mandy: he's sleeping in the living room tonight =p
3:53 AM
My haircut looks like Wolverine's daughter.
I got a henna tattoo in Little India BUT fuck the woman in a hurry to close shop and did the job very hurriedly.@#&*!
*my finger there looks like a giant slug and i dunno why but got a feeling of ikan blis. and it smells of dehydrated bananas.LOL!
im sorry for scaring u(and myself) at the train but u have no idea how impactful ur words are. They speak of insecurities,and the last sentence really tugged at my heartstrings. So i cant tahan and WATER RISE! im sorry for being so emo on you.
TO ISF!
just posted at ISF's 'forum',i really hope as a class,we would really work things out. i hope i do not sound offensive in the 'forum'.But one thing that really binds us all is that wehave the makings of a united class despite our differences yeah?
we may bitch about each other and stuff,but at the end of the day,we are still classmates.i dont expect a 'i love you,u love me,we are one big family' song routine,that's so fake.what i really adore is our 'steadiness' and enthusatism,almost everyone seems to be infected lah!
surely,there would be doubts and conflicts everynow and then lah but we are all in ISF, just make the best of times here.
2:49 AM
Friday, May 4
sorry,i had an eye infection lately and i guess it seems totally boring to update only on school life.i played Victim and Murderer just now at Student Hub,which was really a miracle because i cant even blink properly.hoho.
im going to have a HAIRCUT later. yes,sorry kenneth,i think u will see me in short hair in the years to come as i really ADORE short hair.motivation for long seductive tresses has long gone into the bin.
i really love my class alot.but there are some motherfuckers in class who really irks me off.if i dont like a person,i will just keep away from them,not talking to them at all or just giving my 'berk' face.the only problem ISF have is the noise pollution,whereas all is peachy fine=)
i'll reply tags later. and maybe a picture of new haircut. hope can find something new.spike spunky spoonified.wth! cut until cant tie a single strand!
Giselle,Ash,Yuvin.did i miss out anyone?sorry if i did.
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Great show,great effects=)
We laughed at wrong moments like when Peter gave MJ some peonies and it was pronounced as 'Penis'!!!!!And one when he threw a pokemon thingie at the green goblin's son,and shawal gave a clapping ovation -.-
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went to town.combed far east plaza.
saw alot of ppl. Yuwen,Hq,Jon,Ken,Cf,Winson and his cousin(shit,forget his name AGAIN!) and a funny thing was that some of us kept seeing familiar ppl all around!
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debated going where for dinner as everyone had diff.tastes and it was a public holiday,and everywhere was fuckin' filled.went pizza hut in the end.
after which,we headed to the esplanade.
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We were somewhat like a mobile music station,blasting chinese,english,malay and even korean songs.I think people thought we were somewhat insane.haha.
we shld plan on where to go the next time yeah?
but it was really GREAT!luckily school starts at 12 later,im kinda beat.
NITES!
12:46 AM
debra berk
18
aww_debra@msn.com
Random eccentric meets ditsy
Bishan ite(Events Management)
When she was told puberty stopped at 18.
Crazy posers.
i told u she dislike Fruit Cake haha!
DONT TRY THIS AT HOME,BUT U MAY ATTEMPT IN A CHALET THOUGH.
Man-made tolem pole!
Spot jiarui in the cupboard.HAHA!
THE GALS
ashok really looks like a father.
that fierce glaring manager
i wanna go on board!
my mum meddling with the phone
was browsing through my old folder. 
Finger there cannot make it lah.
ash and pikachu.
cancer at last stage.
thats ME!
i look like a pubescent mickey.
perversely looking at her food.
YUMMICIOUS!
SWELL.
me & Shawal
groupies.
when we were abt to separate
ash's shades was the prop of the day!
