Can you catch my breath

Wednesday, October 3

Okay,dancingwhores is going private.It's being great blogging and seeing responses,but it's time for me to go all private.

I can write anything without thinking how it may affect anyone,a blog that cant express it's feeling=defeating its purpose.I can post whatsoever obscene stuff Haha and rant on and on.

Before i go off,things arent the same anymore.Many things have happened,i have changed,my environment has 'evolved'.Dont worry for me,just gimme the benefit of doubt.It isnt to please everybody when u cant even please urself,u wonder what exactly is the meaning of all?

Wont be deleting this blog,u can play pokemon battles inside,Johnne =)

Being blogging about 'itinerary' posts,no signifiance to me.There are always issues i wanna voice out.So today being the last entry,i shall be truthful.

Everyone changes,it's only a matter of time and whether the change is big and impactful.I have seen friends turning materialistic,friends completely closing themselves up,me myself becoming no longer the 'no tempered' but im still as soft-hearted LOL.me becoming this bloody spilt personality,and emotional wreck.

I always cling on to the past,good or bad.But i think it's my waay of life,and things have always not being smooth-sailing for me.

Even when we disapprove the changes amongst us,it's a fact that we have to adapt and move on.U wont be reading this but as times goes by,acceptance will take place.There is no need to feel guilt upon what feelings u caused to others because ultimately no one can judged u for who u are.

Even if u screwed up once,twice or so,nothing beats the fact that u navigate ur own way and in everything u do,it bears a consequence.

if i had a choice,i would go totally wild and crazy now.i always wanted a change of lifestyle.There are many things i always wanted to do but i always have restrictions or i could say i procrastinate too much.

Im not happy with my life right now.Im not stable right now actually,i was never the over-achiever but i sometimes wish to make a good impact. undo all my wrongs and words i said.Am i capable of being committed?

All this sounds like bullshit,but life's a bullshit,so no harm adding to the pollution.

Memories it shall store no more.

2:49 PM

Tuesday, October 2

He calls these 'cultural' excursions.I'll say i like the unconventional way of dating instead of walking aimlessly in town and watching movies.

yesterday was a fusion.Little India for Thosai,really generous servings and they refilled ur gravy for FREE! and it's bloody cheap too!/Chinatown for Rooftop Bar (i have this craving for Apricot Brandy again!)and Clark Quay to get soaked in the night atmosphere.

The 'cicak' man!

the gmax reverse bungeey was like woah weee~ Nah,i didnt play that,i have a fear of thrill rides.

This guy in the middle who looks like John Locke from Lost(Not because he's botak!),his little daughter was there,and we had this evil impulse to tell her ''Ur father's never gonna come back',or 'Say bye bye to ur daddy.'

Haha,i know so bad right.Anyway i think the people up there were really crazy.They didnt really scream but instead they laughed.Yes,i think their idea of a joke is being suspended mid-air.

this shall be the last entry.Im still deciding which one i like the most and whether to keep it private.shall inform u guys.bye.

2:16 PM

Monday, October 1

DONT GET MARRIED IF U PLAN TO BE UNFAITHFUL.
IT'S GUYS LIKE YOU WHO PULL DOWN THE REST.

GO AWAY.

1:23 AM

Come and cam-whore with meeeeeeeee~

my beautiful boy!

we have an 'angelic' glow!

the one who keep pushing me today.

i still love u anyhow.

SanaSa day!

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Just when i finally found a really lovely skin for my xanga skin,it prompt it cant be saved and lotsa crap.Aaargh,anyway im still a noob at xanga layouts and stuff.

Kenneth shocked the hell outta me today,and for a wild moment,i actually toyed with the thought of being totally wild like him and go ROAR! I know the kick wont last but heck,life's too short to be a stay-downer.

but have to control myself for now.got the feeling the next one will be wen hui! =x

Went to study at Compass point,well i re-read James Patterson's Suzanne's Diary For Nicholas,it's so bloody touching that i had to touch my thigh and Hq started touching me.LOL.

Holidays means a reading fest for me anyway.

i borrowed a book on manners(i totally need it,),and a light read by Celia Brayfield.

Waited for johnne to join us,saw Mrs iszal and her baby boy at kfc.They look great together,her boy is like really big now.I saw Von,but paiseh,i was too slow to react and only gave a 'AAAAAA' and she sped off in her F1 speed to work. -.-

Din get the airport job,MRS LEE,DOES THIS MEAN I CAN GO CHINA?!CAN U DUN BE SO LAST MINUTE ANYMORE?

12:29 AM